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Unless I contact you first, dont bother speaking to me. Im so worn out, tired, and broken, I can hardly stand to get up in the mornings and breathe. Im stressing out far than I should be. Im also being pushed around by people. If you have to ask who, than its probably you, so just..fuck off. You know if you're being a dick.

Im stressed.

I dont want ( Read more... )

Dear Jack off,

Up until this very point, I've not said one hostile word about you. Infact, I've not even pondered your existance. You've not even had the honor to be a memory. Like defective families, your face has been cut from every photo taken in my mind. You havent existed.

However you prove to be most difficult and continously talk about me to ( Read more... )

Im so tired of fighting alone.

Im so tired. Can I give up yet? Im so fucking tired. Im so..tired.

This is how tired I am...I woke up this morning, and didnt know where I was, or what day it was...I was afraid I had been asleep for days.

Shit.

Here it comes again.

Depression.

I fucking hate this.

I hate being lonely.

I just want to dig my nails into him ( Read more... )

Lets start off with Jim because I know many of you've had questions.

We broke up awhile ago. Why? Various, and several reasons; I cant continue to be the soul emotional stablizer and supporter, and two, I cant continue to be failed with broken promises that he never meant to keep. Am I happy? Yes. Yes I am. I received an e-mail from him lastnight. ( Read more... )

Yes the rumors are indeed true folks! I -am- an evil, mean, hurtful, nasty, bitch. Just and FYI. Im cruel and unsupportive. I have no heart and 'dont really care'.

No. I dont support stupidity.

Thank you.

That is all.

So. Single.

I feel a sense of relief- no more guilt trips, arguments, or disappointments. But at the same time, I feel a sense of loss. What could have been would have been sweet, wild, and alive. But he isnt the only, or last one out there. I havnt the desire to date, or get into another relationship. Im not ready. And frankly, its been two years ( Read more... )

 This pain, may not be a forever pain...but that doesnt stop it from aching any less... and all I can think about is...I dont want to spend all that time again, giving myself to someone, and be broken again. I dont want to give up that time it takes to know someone, I dont want to give them access into me, and who I am...all over again. It took too ( Read more... )

Month of May... lots has happened!

I have to find new hormones and insulin meds. The ones Im on cause issuse. Im really unhappy about this, but I cant change the way things are. I hate having PCOS...I hate having ovaries that dont work. I hate not making enough hormones to be normal. I hate not processing my own insulin. Bah...stupid body -.-

Friends ( Read more... )

All my friends are either too poor to fend on their own, too poor to get food, too poor to get medical attention, or all three. I wish I had a million dollars to dish out cash to each one of them so they could get the things they need to live, to survive...to be happy ( Read more... )