+I've forgotten it all. Who I was. What I am now. It's blurry. And dark. I lay in my bed everynight praying that things would get better. But prayers aren't shit. I gotta do it myself. It's all up to me now... I seriously need some help. Im fucking up everything. Friends, relationships, school, myself. I've let down everyone that I care about and ( Read more... )

I'm high outta my mind at the moment, im sittin at Savannahs and i somehow got a tie tied around my head like a hippie. idk what to say theres food and im hungry. MUNCHIES BITCHES. im hoping to evade my depression for just an hour. robins sittin behind me and vannahs out looking for her stupid ass brother. peace lettes.

+Yeah. I'd really like to know. I know they joke but it still hurts. Maybe because it's coming from her. I'm probably taking it too far, but I don't care. I've really quit caring anymore. Is that bad? I don't even know how I can like someone so much. And Sarahs gone. I can't get ahold of her. I'd appreciate it if somebody would clue me the fuck in ( Read more... )

+I'm sorry katie, I changed your background. It's time for a change in my life. Although I'll be down with the clown till I'm dead in the ground I need this journal to relax me. (: LOVE YA!

+Today started out shitty. But then he called, he loves her and I'm happy for them. Im starting to think it's true that when you totally love somebody its impossible to stop. Even if you hate them, you'll still love them. A dear friend of mine's grandmother is near death. I pray her ascension goes well. As I looked to the moon today, it seemed as ( Read more... )

Goodnight" he said ( Read more... )

+Well my mom's selling the house. All my memories. All my friends. Everything. Its going away. And I don't even know when I'm going to see her next. I don't even know when I'll talk to her again. She's going to be driving a truck around the country... And I keep hearing Photograph by Nickelback. Which reminds me of my life I guess. Ive been crying ( Read more... )

+He turned himself in again. He was out but no, they fucked up and he wasn't supposed to get out. So he turned himself in. I feel totally unsafe in this park now, im going to get a large dagger or something to carry around with me. Some shit like that. So yeah. Dont fuck with me right now. Or ill end up killing you.

+Something important in my life happened yesterday. It helped me realise that I might have something to fear, as I could barely control myself. I guess im afraid of hurting people, and if you understand my studies then you'll know what I talk about. You see I write in riddles, so nothing is as it seems in this. At least not now ( Read more... )

+Today was fun... The most fun I've had in a long time. It involved her, and it's finally october. 30 days. Im pretty excited about it actually. I plan on spending the night at a friends and going to a graveyard late at night or something. If we're able to. Im going to do all my partying the day before, so I can be clear minded on the day. I've ( Read more... )