+They dont understand. Why can't they? I now know why Im like this. Why my life is the way it is. Im paying. For a wrong I did so long ago. And it will be my secret. My dirty little secret. That I will take to my grave. Im just glad, that it's over now, and I found myself. Im not done yet though. There's still more. More I have to learn about ( Read more... )

+Im currently learning to heal with my hands, if this bullshit is true which I think it is, and I could care less if you do, I'll be able to practice on someone when I get off grounded. Which im grounded even longer now, I didnt know that my dad grounded me for getting caught smoking on school property, but w/e I don't really care anymore. This ( Read more... )

I just wish.. That I could make all her pain go away. Her every worry to be gone. Yet wishing does nothing. Or does it? It kills me to see her like this, and not being able to do anything about it ( Read more... )

Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion |||||||||| 36% Stability |||||| 23% Orderliness |||||| 23% Accommodation |||||||||||||||| 63% Interdependence |||||||||||| 50% Intellectual |||||||||| 36% Mystical |||||||||||||||||||| 90% Artistic |||||||||||| 43% Religious || 10% Hedonism |||||||||||||||||||| 90% ( Read more... )

Jade spent the night last night. We were gonna get fucked up and shit but we couldn't find anybody to call to deliver the shit to us. And I still need a cigarette. I seriously don't want anybody else but her.. I don't know if that's good or bad. And I'm not fuckin talking about Lynn. If your not completely illiterate you know who I'm talking about ( Read more... )

Yes. Thats it. Nothing in this damn world lasts forever. So why even bother trying. Why? Ill tell you why. Because if everyone thought like this the world would be a pretty fuckin pathetic place. So cheer up you mother fuckin emo kids and quit your whining. This bitch whose journal your reading will turn her life around, without quitting pot, ( Read more... )

Seriously though. Im driving myself fucking insane in my house and im grounded til wednesday. I need a motherfuckin cigarette before I go ballistic. I hate myself. I hate my life. And im going to be depressed until I can see my homies again. Turns out Leahs moving towards the end of october. And Nelly is getting out october 3rd or so ive heard. ( Read more... )

I don't know if I'm up to this. Today holds promise... Im a fucking horrible friend. I ditched one of my best friends at her party for the person I like... I feel horrible. Nothing more to say I guess, Peace.

Ra-ra and Ro are out. But Nelly is still gone. Damn deushbags. I fucking hate the state.

And I'm siiiingle. I broke up with that dumb slut cuz she annoyed the fuck outta me and my posse. Cuz Im psychopathic ;D My longest relationship yet, 8 days. That cunt was in love with me. I swear. Now I gotta burn all her notes with savannah cuz i was there helping her when she burned harley's notes so its like a tradition i guess. I dont mind ( Read more... )

I finally got a girlfriend. Lynn Carroll, freshman, as of 9/7/05. I told my ma and she got all pissy but what the fuck. Ra-ra ain't here to see this or hear the good news.