Excellence often means in scarring yourself

I saw my grandmother die yesterday.I was staring at her face when she stopped breathing. I love her. It has been a shitty year. I am not religious at all but 5 mins before she died I saw a shadow. It was very hard to see my grandfather in such grief. Help us all ( Read more... )

It's my birthday today. My first one without savannah or anyone in two years. She hasn't tried to get ahold of me. I wish I talked to her or saw her This sucks

Attention getting nothing more wish things were different why is this so hard and so easy for other people.

I will Always miss the people I love

no one understands
understand

I am scared
I am nervous

No one is here

I miss her ( Read more... )

You lose some

I don't want to disconnect. But maybe I need to, I don't want to but it kills kills kills me that we were so close at a time and now the pieces keep falling apart. My Honey Bear is gone..............I hate feeling like this. I feel like i lost a person that truly I could trust and depend on but i can't anymore. It hurts. I thought Savannah was ( Read more... )

One Chapter is over a new one is beginning I just wish things were different.

I can't see her or i will literally vomit it almost happen.

I didn't think that feeling was so powerful but it is I m still mad at myself mostly because things should be different. I guess it is just destiny.