I felt like shit for to long...finally i came to the concluesion that sometimes eventhough u love someone soooo much somtimes u just have to let go...jess its over and im dealing with it...i understand that oneday i will realize that i learned something from u and thats never trust a girl when your heart tells u not to...im just a fool and dident ( Read more... )

i feel like shit...its 2:44 am thursday morning...cant get an ounce of sleep...had brain serguiry on monday and im in soo much pain...i dont really show it because im not one known to show pain but i do feell it..ide have to say i owulent of made it though the opperation if it wasent for amaia..i know that all my friends and people that arent my ( Read more... )

im feeling really diffrent about my whole life and just the enviorment that im always envolved in....i feel like its either im not reay for the world or the worlds not ready for me....ive been thinken in ways ive never thought before...not suiecide and not violence...just Relaxation...So many people i love and always will...I Dont need to name them ( Read more... )

Im Seriousely Out Of Here......I Love So Many People And No Matter Whut There Always has to be someone who i love that hates me....Bree im sorry...didient mean anything by it......Lindasy Im Sorry...Amaia Im Sorry And Everyoneelse Im Sorry...Im Really Not a Good Friend....i dont know how or why but my friends automtilcly get fucked up...not anymore ( Read more... )

Well it was smokeys birthday....we were chillin...we actualy limited the crew to me smokey my cuzen ende and dave but its all good because we had fun....yeah so whut if i did something i shouldent have....so much stress...its like my best friends wanna kill me and i dont knwo whut i did.....everyday i tri to have fun but its hard....i miss u....we ( Read more... )

i dont know whut everyones deal is....People who are my close friends get mad at me for bullshit...all my close friends i tell them i love them...even the guys...i like to let people know that they mean sutten to me...because the way i was before i met you guys was that i dident care about anyone....people throw this bullshit at me once in a while ( Read more... )

Whuts Going On In This World....Im Seriously Going Insain....Yesterday Smokey Totally Over Reacted About Some Cars Being In Front Of his House When It Was Really No Big Deal....I Got So Angry...My Temper Is Rageing...Shits So Fucked Up...I dont know how to fix it or how to deal with it...i dont know if i should kill myself or if i should just go ( Read more... )

Today My Cuzen Rob Came Back From His Vacation...I Was Waiting For Him Because I Was Looking Forward TO Chillin With The Guys Like I useto...Well I Did It..But The Whole TIme I Thought About How Much I Wish I Was Home...To B Able TO Talk tO Amaia When She Called And Lindasy Also...I Want Brin Everything TO a Stop...Im Not Gonna Lie...I Smoked ( Read more... )

Its 5 In The Mrorning And Cant catch one z Tonight...Wish I Was able TO Sleep...well i miss Amaia and I Miss Niarra and I Miss Jeanne...Fucked That shit up...But It WIll All Be ok One Day....Amaias got All These new Best Friends now...And I Miss Her So Much...Kills Me that everytime i finish talken to her i break down and get so depressed...im not ( Read more... )

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