so i hurd some news yesterday that just kinda put me on edge idk im just gonna wait to see what happends but i have a really big feeling that its not gonna turn out good and that things are just gonna go down im gonna be getting really stressed out and start freaking out which sucks cause im pretty good right now and i know things are just gonna ( Read more... )

so got up actually sleep really nice taking mom's pain killers mom called cant really get into the dentist anytime soon but im still gonna try cause this shit is killing me even with the drugs well today when i got to work i saw my lex i got all happy but she's leaving this friday already kinda sucks and her hair is chopped really short and i gave ( Read more... )

so yeah it snowed and i actually got my car out the next day and got to work on time only to find out i didn't need to come in til later so i just hung around writing laura lol then i went out to ihop with freddy ran into alot of ppl george came up there we took him and peter back to freddy's house and hung out there where the pain in my teeth just ( Read more... )

so yeah nicole calls me up saying she's sick no movie with her well i wasn't gonna back out on everyone else that said they'd go so i went anyways to damn bad eargon wasn't playing any more but we still went to see night at the museum that movie theather is sweet its big as all hell stuff is way to expsenive though lol thanks to peter being the ( Read more... )

so like these past 3 days have been ups and downs and go ahead freddy call me emo bitch!!! lol so yeah did the work thing on tus that kinda sucked but the work party was pretty damn good we were the first ones to show up from our work even though we were 15mins late lol talked with old mangers marry and jonnie that was fun as hell matt got drunk ( Read more... )

well lets see for the few ppl that do read this whats up nothing to much going on still not living at home but i am stopping home alot more sean leaves with george or just wants to stay at home on his computer so i come home alone alot more often its kinda nice idk i'd rather be at a house with ppl around u then in a house alone with nothing to ( Read more... )

well its been a weird few last days spent some time with george i luv it we get along so well and he knows my problems i know his we talk together like great friends and it feels good to have a guy friend thats well not completly gay that knows and understands how i feel i just wish i could get to seans little brain and make him see it lol or just ( Read more... )

i feel so shitty and the next min. i'll be ok and this thing with sean i just feel like im causing problems and that he's gonna end it with me again cause he cant take the way i act or that he'll just put me in the back for awhile for his friends and then he'll just forget about me i wanted to talk to him face to face for so long and then i here ( Read more... )

well what can i say the past few days have been ups and downs and well hell i really dont care what seans thinks right now he wrote about me being down and having my doubts but u know what everyone has thoughs doesn't mean im gonna believe in them and if he sure does then he's fucking wrong lol had to get it out cause i want that boy to know that ( Read more... )

is it wrong to wait so long then go out with friends i mean i didnt think he was coming for me after almost a whole hour i felt really bad when he called and seemed down i wanted to ask if him if he'd like to come see him but he just didnt seem to care maybe he dislikes peter who knows but i really wish i could of seen him i really wish i could ( Read more... )