im not sure if ur the right one for me anymore u've changed so much since i first meet you. you gave me a ring you gave me ur heart but still it doesnt seem like that. i wish you'd go back to the old ways u were in w/me it made life so much easier and fun not this downer im in know. then when you ask me to tell you wats wrong u get made at me like ( Read more... )

so yeah i got my cds back yesterday felt pretty good that i had no regreats that i felt at peace ok good with my life only to have me feeling eh tonight lol it was a good day at work pretty easy went to sandys had a good time there brought a ham but he couldnt stay long i guess he's got plans with ryan thats cool then he's uber busy all tomrrow so ( Read more... )

ahh damn it idk what to do i thought i didnt need sean around but the more time im away from the more time i dont hear from him the fucking more i miss him and wanna be around him or just see him god im stupid i know we're not ment to be but it hurts everyone around me is being happy kristin got a new bf again no biggy there nicole and matt are ( Read more... )

well im back in the same old spot as always but this time im shocked i mean i slept with him curlde up for a good sleep woke up gave him kisses only to have him leave me a note i guess its been building up on him but still just to talk instead of throwing it all away wouldnt that be better i guess this means its the end and he's really gonna put ( Read more... )

see children there is a thing called life it sometimes goes up and down like a roller coaster or it can stand still just like a statue it all depends on how u make it work....right now im not sure about mine its moving i guess at a kiddys roller coaster lol not to fast but not standing still idk maybe im ok cause im tired and haven't slept for ( Read more... )

i just need someone to talk to and listen to all the shit thats going on in my life...they dont need to tell me what to do just listen to me so i can get all this off my chest my feelings my thoughts it's fucking me up man i luv sean to death and yet im trying not to be down and going out with freinds only to have him think i dont want him anymore ( Read more... )

k so where to start i didnt go on my date with hamish i took a nap after work on friday and well my phone did ring it was only peter asking what time we were gonna leave so i told him hamish never called so we can go whenever so i grabed my shit headed over to my moms house and just chilled there until freddy called saying he was gonna come with us ( Read more... )

so whats the deal with me always getting the shitty end of the stick well i should start with the good first i went to ihop with peter trying to make him feel better about sarah then bella showed up and made my night fun as can be and joyful well went home early got some sleep got up at 6am and went to work i was so up tight and scared but its not ( Read more... )

so yeah yesterday night was fun went over to peters house with peter and freddy we played some vido games until i crashed out on the couch lol god only knows how long those guys were playing for then i went home and slept went to sandys yesterday for some lunch that was really good and then i got to see the new carpet downstairs its really blue and ( Read more... )

k so just chilling over at sean's moms house reading the book yesterday when the freddy calls and asks if i wanna go clubing well i didnt feel like dressing up way to much work and coldness for me so he calls back and asks if i wanna go drop erika off at her bf's house with him and its like sure so on the way there kinda sucked didnt talk to much ( Read more... )