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katiecarnage

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i think my parents are buying me a condo.

the emergency room wasn't as bad as expected.
i was in and out in an hour exactly.

but gaping flesh wounds with fabric in them suck.
i'm bleeding off and on.

but my dad bought me special edition corpse bride!
someone come over and hook up my dvd player though.

lovekate

we would have been dating for 1 year and four months tomorrow.

i don't know when i became a frickin fatass.

i'm so unhappy.

i miss having friends i cared about.

i keep trying to bring it back,

but i don't seem to be able to.

for a few reasons.

i hate being lonely.

if the forms of this world die,
which is more real,
the me that dies
or the me that's infinite?

side tattoos hurt.

but are so inexplicably hot.

there is no true romance anymore
everything is a prelude to a fuck
and everything after is just meaningless
words exchanged while you put on your clothes
tie up your shoes walk out the door

you never loved her anyway, right?

love doesn't exist anymore
it's not cool enough or unattainable enough
love is fucking out like disco