the world seems different, i'm content with myself and physically ill thinking of the status quo ( Read more... )

yesterday one of my best friends went under the knife, another one of my best friends almost got a hatchet in the head and got kicked out of our house at 5am ( Read more... )

i got upset, i got fucked up, the lesbian bartender closed the bar to drive me home and wouldn't even come in for a drink, maybe it's because i filled a 10gallon trash bag with vomit before we left the bar?

i know more than i say, but who am i not to say?

another avocado sandwich another break from work, that phrase and the tone behind it i know what i'm doing, "party at diamondfork hotsprings, probably turning into an orgy!" i've got to work and pack but mostly work, the packing's easy, i live as a squatter everywhere i go, but i want to go climb and sit in the hot springs that will undoubtedly ( Read more... )

my feet are stinky today, what's worrying me about this is that they smell exactly like mcdonalds cheeseburgers, i hope it's just some freaky coincidence, but i don't believe in coincidences

that's how my insides feel, my spirit's cleansed but something's off, i felt a pain in my hand while driving, later i felt the same pain near my hip on the outside of my leg, i know these pains aren't my own but i feel them anyways, how can i walk around with everyone's weight on me?

trains are clacking on the tracks close to my humble abode i'll lay quietly tonight for tomorrow brings california nights and a new heartache i'll pretend is new to my soul because i've heard stories and promised friends i'll bring them back california girls of my livelihood to romance back to the eastern states but those spirits don't know that a ( Read more... )

my tea tells me "love is like ecstasy" i think a more honest analogy is "love is like a kick in the nuts" or "love STINKS!"

enough of the bullshit i'm being completely honest from now on and if it comes off as me being a mysoganist then so be it, but i wish i could masturbate then maybe i could sleep ( Read more... )