yea....i miss her...and still love her.....and theres so much i want to say, just no reason to say it......happy holidays.

i missed this thing, so i decided to start back up. lots of stuff has happend since my last entry, but i dont want to go into it. "cant live in yesterday." good to back. XXX

she says she doesnt want to talk about "us" anymore. and she wonders why im always fucking depressed.

i feel like this will never heal. the good guy wont get the girl. he never has. why should he now? the show sucked tonight. yea, the kids enjoyed it. but people like to see others pain on display. no one notices how hard it is. how much effort goes into it all. the strums, the screams, the turns, the jumps, the swaying,the blood, the sweat, the ( Read more... )

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oh my lordy, im back after two months! its been such a long time since my last entry (which was one of my favorites, it was a Converge song. how can you not love it?). i guess i should start explaining whats been going on for a two months. its pretty simple actually ( Read more... )

Dear, I'll stay gold just to keep these pasts at bay To keep the loneliest of nights from claiming you and to keep these longest of days from waking you For I felt the greatest of winters coming and I saw you as seasons shifting from blue to grey That's where the coldest of these days await me and distance lays her heavy head beside me There I'll ( Read more... )

you tell me every single day, how i should be ( Read more... )

last night was great and awful all in about 5 hours. first, me and jared went to eric from xDeathstarx's house so he could re-do Jared's tattoo on his back. We were there for about 3 hours, we watched Fight Club while he was getting his tat done. then as they were working, a lot of the kids from the stairs started coming to the house do to the lame ( Read more... )

i can....never...swallow your false ideals....of a....lifeless.....happy ending.