So I hate being alone.  Gives me time to think and over think things that were fine before I started thinking about them.  Though I am no in the states, I feel even more isolated and alone than I did when I was over seas and everyone else was here.  I dont understand how that works.  But I do know that I hate it.
So! Like I said.  Thinking about ( Read more... )

So lately i've been chatting with a friend from Tech. Fontrho (Matt). Haha. We've discovered the most random things. Like our relationship. It's like brother/sister. Though the people at tech only see the bickering and fighting part. But what about the bonding?...

Fontrho: people expect us to fight?
AsHeLyEs: kinda... yeah
AsHeLyEs: it's what's ( Read more... )

Haha! wanna hear something funny? I got locked out of my room. That's the first time this semester. And it was really an accident. I thought I had my key in my pocket as I left the room... only to return at 2 am and find out that i didn't have it and that my roommate locked the door >.

Last night a group of people (er... Mickey, Justin, Steve, Goat, and a little bit of myself) had the most random discussion about religion. Ok, maybe not so random. The random part was that it was the 5 of us, and not the usual Jonas vs. Tweedy debate. Everyone got a little heated when Steve started talking about predestination vs. free-will (which ( Read more... )

Ok... So Chris and I are dating. And i'm really happy about it :) I don't think life could be any better. But I worry... worry I could lose him... he tells me not to, and i trust him... but when hearing that his x still loves him.... and that she's jealous of Chris and me... i worry... a lot. Maybe i'm just reading to far into things. From what ( Read more... )

Woot for being in such a great mood. Okay. So school starts. Everyone gets together. And we all have a blast... until i'm suddenly told to leave the country by my dad. Well, I'm hoping to talk to my mom soon and explain that i finally found a place I fit, and an more than willing to pay for my round trip ticket to go back and stay till christmas. I ( Read more... )

Okay... So I admit to being hurt a few days ago by someone I thought highly of. Too bad. Right? Well, the good news is, for ''just friends'', we were doing good. Talking and stuff. But I haven't heard from him now, in two days. Does this mean he's avoiding me? I wish I knew, because there are things that he needs to tell me. We're planning ( Read more... )

So for that past semester at school i thought i had a b/f. I confront him today about it... because i keep geting questions... truns out i don't... and that he thinks we'd be better off as friends... That was a shot to the gut. I hurt... i'm crying... and i hate life...

I know this is gonna sound like one of those entries that Mickey doesn't like... but I miss everyone. School has ended and everyone went home... Most to a place that they've lived in for a long time, and have friends desperately waiting for their return. Me? I went home to a dad and a brother and a high school that I hated in Europe. All my ( Read more... )

So, for those who read this... and haven't actually figured it out, I am playing a computer game called World of Warcraft... but I don't like playing it. I only got it to impress a guy. Thinking it would be like red flags... showing him that I'm here... RIGHT HERE!!! But no. I went to say good night to him through the game earlier... and he ( Read more... )