i am restarting my livejournal to document my life in beijing over the next 4 months. i figure i'll have a lot of things to write about, being shell-shocked and lonely hahaha.

i have to make sure i stick with it.
because if i don't i'm doomed to repeat the same mistakes of the past.

why is it, if you think for yourself, you are selfish...and then you feel guilty?

done too much of that...

so we'll see what happens over the next month.
lots of changes to come.

and fast.

all i have to say after finding your travelblog is ( Read more... )

and i don't know what else to write at the moment, because as much as he was simply my dog, he has been in a long long time...the first person/being that i really loved so much that's gone...suddenly. my grandparents have passed on my mom's side, but i honestly did not have much of a relationship with them...that's not to say i didn't love them, it ( Read more... )

not in the mood to deal with YOUR bullshit.

(meaning people at work or random people calling me)

the road to hell is paved with good intentions AKA
good intentions don't always lead to good outcomes

i think...

no,

i know...

a little piece of my heart will always be yours.

i know we'll never be together again -

but i will never forget what we had.

I hate to go into the details, but all I can say is that no matter what life has given me, I still have faith in people ( Read more... )

It is so easy to see
Dysfunction between you and me
We must free up these
tired souls
Before the sadness kills us both

I tried and tried to let
you know
I love you but I'm letting go
It may not last but I don't
know
Just don't know

If you don't know
Then you can't care
And
you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want
to
Still afraid that I ( Read more... )

i love you but i love myself too

a love that tears you down, ain't really love.