last night i kissed a bisexual, tomorrow i have my first midterm, and i have an essay due next tuesday...kissing=good, school=bad...must go to bed

since i've been here i've been too dependent on people for my happiness. it's not nessessarily a bad thing but it's a 180 from the days back in miami. here i have other people who know exactly what i went and am now going through, they're called fags. but how wise is it to depend on gay people for my happiness; we're all fucking unstable, depressed ( Read more... )

today i went to the park at a pier on the hudson river, then went shopping and actually bought something (thank u chris and company), got sung to by friends at weinstein, came to my room to find that my roommates and some other people had bought a cake and banners (thanks to all involved)... now i m just chilling, waiting to go to a gay club at ( Read more... )

why is it that we always want what we can't have??

today mother and i met up in midtown. she was here for a meeting, didn't even spend the night, so i saw her for all of 15 minutes...we caught up, she avoided the issue of my sexual orientation and so did i so we had a pretty amicable conversation. she brought me a bag of stuff i forgot back home--ie CDs!!! i'm sooooo glad i have music now, i didn't ( Read more... )

today i attempted to attempt to drink, but by the time i got across the hall everybody was already drunk so i just ended up tasting spicy rum and rasberry vodka, both of with tasted like cough syrup...drinking is a big part of college, i cant stand drunk people, unless they cuddle with me...oh well, i hope that some day i'll get drunk, be happy, ( Read more... )

James (mah roommate): "this water is amazing, it feels like God just ejaculated in my mouth." WTF!!?!?!? i though i was the only gay one here...

tonight started off kind of sucky; i have class tomorrow morning and i was thinking of staying in and writing a paper i need to turn in tomorrow at 9:30. i went online for a while and started getting homesick...i miss ya'll from back home!!!! i decided to take a shower so i could wake up and maybe get inspired but just as i was about to get into ( Read more... )

i just got off the phone with my mom, here's an excerpt of our conversation ( Read more... )

today i came to the conclusion that i'm boring, today i came to the conclusion that i'm lame, today i came to the conclusion that i'll fit in perfectly at stern!!