So I dont know when the last time I actually wrote something here. It gives a date but no year so it was either earlier this year orr early last year. Wow ( Read more... )

And I return from the dead once more. It's only because I can't bring myself to do any homework, or reading, or even stumbleupon anymore. I also had a revelation of sorts last night but that's long gone ( Read more... )

I don't know. I'm in one of those situations again where i have two sides arguing inside my head. To a lot of people what I'm debating is prob stupid and pointless and I'm trying to tell myself that it is but I just can't bring myself to accept that. It's relatively meaningless and material and selfish. But it was something I'm looking forward to ( Read more... )

I'm optimistic. I love life, I love where I'm at, I love my family and my friends and may amazing boyfriend. Yeah there's a few things that I'm not happy about, mostly my weight seeing as I'm still a little heavier than I'd like to be and I'm far away from Roger, but those are dealable and totally fixable. Roger's not even that far away, and ( Read more... )

I am miserable. A lot more miserable than I should be or than is probably healthy. It's snowing a lot. Yeah snow brought happiness and cheer when I was younger now it just brings sadness that spreads through people like the plague. Roger had a show tonight a few towns away. I couldn't go because of snow I'm stuck at home. It started snowing at 12, ( Read more... )

What is it about 2 in the morning that makes companies think that people awake at this hour are more susceptable to buying shit than people awake at 2 in the afternoon? Is it the fact that people awake at this hour may be slightly more inebriated and therefore want to go out immediately and buy the Kodak easyshare camera? Do they really think that ( Read more... )

So I'm bored. I've been fucking studying for a damn spanish test all day. I hate that class with a fiery passion. It can only be compared to 10th grade math with Mrs. Irmler. Ohh how I hated that class, I tried so hard but always seemed to fail. Once again same position. I've studied my ass off, havent passed a test all year. Me! The over achiever ( Read more... )

Lifes pretty good. Im not gonna lie. Ive been pretty negative lately cuz theres 2 classes I'm not doing so hot in but I have no reason to complain. I'm at a great school doing what I love, I have a great family and the best boyfriend ever. I have friends who are here for me when I need them but I have enough time to myself to reflect and get my ( Read more... )

OKay so scratch that all. It was just the hormonial rantings of a pmsing teenage girl. I love my life no matters what happens, I have a great supportive family and I'm in love with a wonderful guy who loves me back! Who could ask for more?! Not I says the wolf.

I don't know if it's me who's the problem or not. I can never tell if I'm over reacting or if it just is how it is and I don't know what to do about it. I don't think there's anything I can do except wait and see how everything unfolds. I don't like that plan, I'm homesick and lonely deep inside and it hurts. Yes this is my emo entry, deal with it ( Read more... )