I can’t say I’ve been completely content with everything that’s been happening in my life lately, let alone anything remotely resembling happy. It has its ups and its downs, although usually in what feels like the wrong proportion. In all honesty that’s probably just because I don’t take the time enough to notice the good things. Beau made a ( Read more... )

My heart doesn't know any better. It doesn't see the danger in loving somebody who's not interested. It doesn't understand the risk involved, or the consequences following a possible rejection. It's kind of like being hungry. When you're REALLY hungry, your stomach doesn't want to hear any excuses. It doesn't want to occupy itself with details and ( Read more... )

The Mixed Messenger
Deliberate Brutal Love Dreamer (DBLD)

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Where to start? I shouldn’t be surprised. I knew I’d probably be replaced at some point by something younger and adorable. It doesn’t stop it from hurting or sucking so badly, though. I’m trying my best to keep my chin up and biting my lower lip to keep it all back, but it doesn’t work well. He admits to loving me on some level, but there’s no ( Read more... )

Let’s say that Michael goes into a restaurant and wants to order dessert ( Read more... )

Fear cannot touch me...
It can only taunt me,
it cannot take me,
just tell me
where to go...

I can either follow,
or stay in my bed...

I can hold on to the
things that I know...

The dead stay dead,
they cannot walk.
The shadows are darkness,
And darkness can't talk.

In three days I've taken an engraving less than 3"X5" in its original form, scaled it up to a life sized pattern, and turned it into a very real piece of wearable clothing. It would take some people three months to do the same thing. I don't know why this stuff comes so easily to me.

It makes life difficult.

I try so very hard to remind myself that even a Monet painting is a random mass of splotches up close. And frankly, a Monet isn't necessarily always that pretty until you can stand back and see the entirel painting in full. It makes sense then. I'm just having trouble getting to that spot where I can stand back and see it all together and have ( Read more... )

Today I finished Laura's corset. White coutil bound with powder blue and flossed in the same:


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That disgusting manslut was right...

At least about one thing.

...I can and do get the guys he never has and never will ( Read more... )