you still look at this?? What the hell is your issue. Leave me alone. You hear me??

I died inside..... I mean, whats the point?! This meaningless existance is slowly coming to an end... slowly...slowly... this tourturus time is scaring my very soul.... slowly...slowly overcoming me. Untill i fall apart... untill... untill there is no moreand not only that. My infection is spreading. Slowly others are starting to fall apart like me ( Read more... )

Not feeling to great. I got a second job interview, thats nice. But still not feeling to great. I'm kinda stuck on the fact that Jammie's Step mom doesn't like me.... and that her dad won't let us do anything cuz she has to study for finals... God is that a pain. Well things'll get batter. I have a basket ball game tomarrow ight. Thats ganna be fun ( Read more... )

I'm....happy... sounds odd. doesn't it? False sence?? Nah. It's been some time since I felt "happy". But now I do. ^^ Yay!

Today was pretty chill. We didn't do much, but that fine with me. Me chris and adam mainly just played games. But all the while i was just not there. I thought a lot. Games get boring. Thinking passes time. I don't know. Things seem to get foggier the more i think about them. Oh well. I'm just being useless. Monday school will start and I'll ( Read more... )

I found my chance at feeling a bit better. I'm ganna start up Yoga. It's soppose to relieve stress and build muscle, both things i wouldn't mind. But it's also soppose to do something more, help you find yourself, and be yourself in this crazy world everyone lives in. Thats what i think is ganna help me the most, finding me, thinking about me and ( Read more... )

well, I'm back again... here to vent once more bout what is caging my mind into a shallow, cold depression. I usually put something infront of overwelming. Frustration , hunger, power.... not today. Theres would be to much. Isn't it wierd how when your sad everything is magnified by 10, maybe more.Everything seems more drastic then it really is. I' ( Read more... )

hi!had to go to band.. and it rained.. and i got wet >< not really but still... and sarah was being hypocritical... damned....damned damned damned... 2 weeks... about 2 and a half...then theres only more time to wait...

ive been cleaning my room bwecause of what my mom did... she made such a damn mess... anyways im going around, finding stuff to put it back into its place and i find a picture of me and Heather... ::smile:: good stuff...... i just wish there was more. Anyways i got a lot more to clean up. And deal with my mom... what the hell is her problem. bye

once again i end a day in this mood... this mood of helplessness, thati dn't contol how i'm going to feel tomarrow because my feelings are in someone elses hands... why... why do i take this... why can't i just understand... why can't it all just be clear...