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Got a house and I'm all alone in it. This is new for me. Been a long time since I've spent this many nights under a roof alone. But it's all mine and mine alone. Independence in its purest I suppose ( Read more... ) -
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The fact that I won't allow myself to be sad I think worries some. I don't have time for that feeling anymore. I had feelings For someone And they were not returned. I move on. I want to be sad, but its selfish to think like that I believe the older you get. There is to much going on around you to try and stop the world. Then on top of that make it ( Read more... ) -
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I am in control, I have to be. I swear my emotions are to loud for my brain sometimes, but I know there to much for everyone around me more. So lonely, this past month. I know it's just because I want to be around her. Such a silly boy I am, always trying to be a man. I need to move alread, have things my own way again. Didn't get crazy this ( Read more... ) -
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I think the party is over for me. Now what do I do? -
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I realized I'm not ever posting deep when I'm happy. Well I'm happy, now what the he'll do I do with it? Just trying not to act like a idiot now ( Read more... ) -
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I don't understand myself with people anymore. So routine and my need to feel something special in every moment just causes me problems. Lol it's either I push something to be more than it can be at the wrong time. Or I don't even bother to have any form of bonding with anyone or anything around me. I dont understand this mental block im having. ( Read more... ) -
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New life again. I work out of town now with the company. It's pretty good. I like the separation feeling I get. It's the living alone part of my life I needed back. So far California, Arizona, Missouri and Kansas. Lots of food, pools and gyms. Lots of time to think before I have to go back to being recognized by life. I like it to much I think. ( Read more... ) -
Things this month have taught me
I am a very stupid person in my eyes, but the thing I forgot is how damn retarded most the people around me are. I let myself enjoy this blinder that I created to have lots of ppl in my life. Using it to allow ppl to move around me like they please. I'm done with that ( Read more... ) -
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So I got a job working for my fathers company and I'm two weeks in. Not bad work and it has improved our relationship 10 fold. I have no Idea anymore who this man in front of me is now ( Read more... ) -
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New Orleans has reminded me I got swag falling out my ass ( Read more... )