Here we go again. In the middle, or in this case, at the beginning, of every single entry, i think about the reason I am writing… There is none. So, I am going to stop. 

Basically, I feel like I am barely keeping my head above water. The main reason for this is money, when it comes down to it. I am so so so stressed by it.

On another, happier note: I cannot wait to marry Nick someday. I know I am not financially or mentally ready for that commitment right now, but I think about it so much. Even just having a puppy ( Read more... )

 

Sometimes, it's easier to say nothing at all rather than sorting out everything I am thinking. 

I don’t even know where to begin. What a stressful time. I feel like things are looking up, which is good. I am glad that this time is finally here so that Nick and his family and all of Kristan’s close friends and loved ones can finally get some closure. I’m sure it won’t make not having her here any easier, but it always helps to have questions ( Read more... )

Actually, that’s not true. I do know. But I am not sure why hormones are making me feel so awful. I am supposed to start my period YESTERDAY and I haven’t yet. I am tired and my head hurts and I feel like complete garbage. I am also kind of worried since I had a really vivid dream that I was pregnant a week or two ago. And I can’t really tell Nick ( Read more... )

This week has been incredible stressful for some reason. It seems like things just keep going wrong and specifically just to play at my anxiety. If I had a dollar for every time I wanted to start crying because 30 things went wrong at once, I would have about 10 dollars. That is a few too many times for anxiety attacks in one week.

I had another ( Read more... )

I made the Dean's List :) I am so proud of myself, and I can't wait to do it again this quarter :)

Things seem like they are falling into place - I have two interviews this week and made the Dean's List, and things with Boyfriend are so great. I think I have learned that I need to take a step back from things and just let them happen. It's hard for ( Read more... )

  blah blah blah is how i feel.

had a fantastic weekend with boyfran, now it's spring break. can you say boring?

This weekend has been a roller coaster. Or, perhaps, it's just my brain that is the roller coaster? This is the more likely conclusion to be drawn.

Friday, Boyfran and I had dinner with Poppa Hennies and then retreated to Clemmer where we watched our weekly episode (SO addicted to all things Gordon Ramsay) of Kitchen Nightmares. We had awesome ( Read more... )