I don't want to restore from an old draft, I just want to give everyone a public apology. So when she said that she has never once had a falling out with a friend, it struck me because I've had a falling out with EVERY ONE OF MY FRIENDS. God, how pathetic. Is there a reason behind it, was it pushing people away? Am I just crazy? Why I always put ( Read more... )

WOWWWW I'm really starting to hate this journal. yuck. i want to have an ego, i don't connect with anything. this is the same old just written differently. a more direct approach. LATER.

I love you. Sometimes I can't believe that you're really mine. I can't wait to see you.

I just had an amazing orgasm with myself.

It's true, I just realized part of my dream last night. In it, I was in a huge CIA / SFO area, with Obama and his wife and daughters, Jeff, Anya, maybe Jim Morrison made another appearance but I don't think so. Anyways, I think that's every one, minus the charged CIA guys that togther, with Obama, were going to leave me here in this place, and once ( Read more... )

I'm really sad, I'm really happy,  everything is weird, everything is fine, everything is always up in the air, nothing is on hold, everything is going, I'm stopping, I'm slowing down, I'm just getting started, I'm not particularly good at anything and I want to be, I don't know if I can be.

I want to go to sleep, I'm about to go to sleep.

It wasn't me, I wasn't there
That was not my love affair
That is not my lover, that's not even my friend
It wasn't me, I wasn't there
I was stone drunk, it isn't clear
And it doesn't count, because I don't care

Nawww.