Being bipolar is the same thing as being manic depressive.

I think I am.....manic-depressive annndd the anxiety gets worse and worse. Especially when I don't smoke.

Oh man.....I'm just waiting for my life to turn around. I'm being as patient as I can.

I have A LOT of fucking homework to do tomorrow. No school again ( Read more... )

Yeah my pc has been broken for a couple of months, so whenever I do get a chance to go online I never stay on for more than a couple minutes. Right now I'm at Jasmine's, just chillin. And I'm talking to Eddie cause I'm trying to delete and load new songs onto my MP3 player (yes I'm starting to succumb to the trends....kill me. Well, my grammy ( Read more... )

So I've been trying my hardest to get cleaned up. I'll call you to come over. And I sit there feeling accomplished, something I've never felt when I wasn't sober. I've learned to unloosen these reins and let myself get pulled under. I just want to live, I've been wanting to live, but can I do this? This year will I allow myself to get caught up? ( Read more... )

While life is passing me by, I remain immobilized by fear
of everything and anything
so I paused.
And I am still stuck in this rut in my own parasitic fear,
that is still eating away at me til I don't care, or I'm too gone to realize or to know how it feels to care anymoreYou can't save me, although I wish you could. Maybe you can help me. (I wish ( Read more... )

1. I'm not doing anymore drugs. Except drinking and smoking my cigarettes so I don't stress and kill myself ( Read more... )

Family sucks sometimes ( Read more... )

Let the emotions overwhelm you into happiness ( Read more... )

I am losing it. Slowly my sanity leaves me. I am alone while I dwell on these thoughts. The smallest hint of a smile can be deceiving.

You do not know the

depths

of

my

painIt's all finally catching up ( Read more... )

Maybe.

FRIDAYThis weekend has been fun. On Friday after school I went to Tito's house for the first time in like two months. Andrena and Max convinced me to go over. While we walked there, I got anxiety for some reason. I think that's starting to become a problem, I get anxiety at the most random times. I need to see a therapist...on da real. ( Read more... )