Going Left Around the World: Chapter 52

[mrs_spamlad]

"Times New Roman"">Disclaimer:  Brokeback Mountain and the original characters of Jack and Ennis were created by and belong to Annie Proulx. No money is being made from this- I’m just taking them out for a spin!

Summary: This is an au/au story told in the first person from Jack’s POV. Jack and Ennis both come from working-class families and bond as

Comments

[sid401k]

I'm thinking that this may be a wake-up call for Ennis. (Of course, he can always choose to go back to sleep again--for a while--coming out is like that.) Now that he's actually verbalized (last chapter) the I'm-not-really-gay-this-thing-with-Jack-is-temporary bullshit, it's a lot harder for him to pretend that he believes it. I guess his next line of defense will be that he really deserves this special time with Jack to make up for the (theoretical) virtuous heterosexual future he intends to move on to. Which is at least a step forward from the idea that what he has with Jack isn't real and his hypothetical future straight life is real.

[ramona4jake]

I'm so happy you didn't give up on this story !
Jack and Ennis just break my heart.... such hard decisions to make, especially for Ennis ! Jack already lost so much... I wish he could pick himself up and concentrate on finishing school, so that his future is safe... at least !

thank you, cannot wait to read more !

[sienata]

great update. i get really frustrated with jack for not being harder on ennis, for just crawling into himself when the shit hits the fan, but he's young and confused and he's just lost his mom, so i guess, he just doesn't have the gumption to fight back like he probably needs too. also, i have been in similar situations where i know there's no good outcome long term, but maybe i'm just not ready to deal with the best option - breaking up - so i sweep it under the rug as best i can and hope stupidly that maybe it will fix it self somehow. that never really works, but i guess it's humane nature to try.

glad you're still working on this. good job. :)

[grlewis]

yea. an update. i'm still here hoping for updates. this was so sad. so much angst. poor jack. ennis just keeps sticking it to him.

[mariez65]

First things first - congrats to you and your beautiful wife! I'm very happy for both of you :)

But the storm had passed for the moment, and sometimes, friends, that’s about all you can ask for.

So very true. Life is just so fucking hard some times, isn't it? So, of course, we want (and need) a respite from those storms. Poor Jack. I understand his feelings and his actions. It's so easy from the outside to say what someone should do, but he can't change Ennis. Any changes Ennis makes have to come from deep inside himself. I believe that Ennis is truly sorry, but until he can mend what's broken and scared inside himself, he can't be what Jack needs and deserves. Josh is a good friend, but I don't want to see him get hurt either, although I know Jack would never hurt him intentionally.

Thanks for sticking with this story, Jill. It really is something special and I know I'll be right here waiting for the next chapter whenever that may be! Hugs to you and Camilla!