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man, i wish i wast attracted to people that dont treat me right.

i love how everyone is fake
no matter how real you think you are or you say you are
you just are
like me. i think im actually one of the most fake people ever
i fake modesty most of the time
because it makes people not think im stuck up
like i really am
i think im better than people
i have way ( Read more... )

so. in short people are making me sad.
i wish i didnt care.

i dont think you feel this is much as i do
and i wonder if it matters
what everything means
when i think of you are you thinking of me
the days go by and i cant remember your face
a blur exists in its place
im running it all over again in my head
theres no chance of my survival
and our time spent however short it was
is not worth a cent
it seems as ( Read more... )

some stuff doesnt feel right. i dunno if its just me being extremely insecure or if everythings fucked up. and im fuckin retarded and i hate myself again today.

i hate having to convince myself every day that im not a complete fucking selfish asshole

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so today was..ok

i went to the jelly belly factory
and they made me a little bit mad
we were going through watching the videos and whatnot
and the lady kept saying.."and we now have robots replacing those people you see here..."
it made me feel really bad
because lots of people lost their jobs

and then we went to the mall and i almost bought shoes but ( Read more... )

today, i hate myself

alright someone needs to take me to the cheesecake factory so that i can gorge myself and be a fatass

i love cheesecake

whos it gonna be?

sometimes i have days where i am completely in love with everything
i love how trees have green leaves 
i love everyone im with, eveything i see, everyone i see

you know i really dont like it when people say something bad about something, anything

for example "man this car sucks"
ill bet you anything someone put everything into making it for you, and ( Read more... )