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come back from california!

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today is ephus t-shirt day, cause my brothers' band is called ephus and they now have sweet t-shirts. and i am their number one fan.

because i am an awesome sister.

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lots to get done today...pray for my mental stamina!

there's nothing that rips at my heart more than hearing loved ones pine for death. there's nothing that rips at my heart more than being the one pining away for death. it's a miserable state of affairs, the depression that runs so deep happiness is sucked out of the self like oxygen stripped away, leaving one writhing and gasping for air ( Read more... )

it's been years since i've thought to tarry a moment in live journal. and what've i to say? perhaps if i wrote more often, i would not face the pressures of profundity or excellence upon writing ( Read more... )

so today alex and i were at the olive garden. not that i love the olive garden, but we were out, we were hungry, and i'd never been to one, so. it seemed fitting. so we went, and we put our names in for a table. it's surprisingly busy for 5pm, but whatever. we stand in the foyer and wait like good little patrons, clutching our little your- ( Read more... )

so i'm excited to be cast in mr. wrase's play. guild event! though, i wonder at the role i received, whether or not my placing in this role should have any bearing on the ways in which i think about myself. why this character, over the two others? perhaps i AM that good of an actress. i've never really compared myself to the person on which my ( Read more... )

i want to be in a band. who needs a real career. i just want to sing songs with sweet people forever ( Read more... )

i have solved it.

i'm stumbling around in a cloud. my eyes are glazed over. my ears are stuffed with cotton. somehow, i got trapped behind a sound-proof barrier: life is on the other side. or at least, someone's life is on the other side. i do not know if this is mine, if this is wanted, if i want this. i am on the cusp of tears. what have i become? some ( Read more... )