i have not even been gone a week and my husband is already calling me to tell me he needs help juggling money until his checks arrive. i gave him most of what i received on my last check - sucker, i know .. but i am the one who left and leaving him without money would have plagued me as one of the all-time bitchiest things i could do. so wtf? i ( Read more... )

so my husband-less adventure begins .. i am feeling as relieved as i am sad about being away from my husband. i feel as though i am breathing easier and i have already regained some sense of control over my life and my actions again .. like i am allowed to relax and let my guard down. i didnt realize i was strung so tight until i was away from ( Read more... )

i asked for a summer long break .. his first response was "all or nothing ( Read more... )

i do love my husband madly, though i am still unsure i want to be married. we are not planning any children (never were) so really there is no good reason for us to have ever gotten married, except that we are in love (whatever that means). i never really understood the phrase "we hurt the ones we love the most" until recently. i think its by ( Read more... )

i have come to an impasse in my world, revolving around my relationship with my husband. it seems to me that my world was much safer, much more secure, much less full of bullshit before I got married. i am not sure at what point a partner says enough of this crap, sorry about the mistake, love really isnt enough and the rest is history.

i think its their hair that i dig most ..

my grandma (dad's mom) died last week at 87 years old. my parents were visiting me on a cross country trek to see all 4 of their kids, and my dad called her nursing home for his nightly check-in, to find out that her health was rapidly deteriorating. they packed up after mom and i spent half the night in a laundromat, and left early the next ( Read more... )

i seem to be surrounded by kids, babies everywhere i go these days .. and of course, the question on everyones mind is .. are you going to have babies? the answer has always been (and still remains) a resounding "no!" i keep trying to be maternal, to adore the babies around me and be a good adult role model .. and find i just dont wanna ( Read more... )

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