No, this is not about Steve-o.  I'm positive that he and I were meant to be together.  This is about a guy, James, who I believe should have been my ex-boyfriend by now.  Did you ever get that feeling?  Like, you never got together, due to bad timing, but always should have?  Like you should have a basket full of warm and horrible memories of this ( Read more... )

Ah Lil' Kim... why is it always so appropriate to quote you ( Read more... )

My strength and independence waxes and wanes.

It does this within many of the different spheres of my life; body image; work; activism; Steve-o...

This is the human condition; however, I trust myself enough to know that no matter what, I'll be ok.

My high school more-than-crush, who I've referenced in previous entries, Rich, could have been a boyfriend.  This is something that I struggled with and still think about.  Allow me to explain this bizzare situation, that, well, is more cliche than bizzare, unfortunately.  I don't know which one I rather it be.

We had this mutual friend, J, who was ( Read more... )

Last night I had a dream about my ex-boyfriend from a while ago. I probably dreamed of him due to the fact that I was at a club last night with a lot of Indian and Pakistani guys. I'm so attracted to them! But I digress... In my dream, we met at this small theatre (or could have been like a comedy club) and sat a few chairs away from eachother, ( Read more... )

Ok... who feels like people are all up in their koolaid and don't even know the flava? Because seriously... That's what's happening right now. I even feel like my good vibes are being deflected and pushed back by everyone's shitty mood. I just wish I could learn how to not let people's moods and karma affect me so much (the bad ones anyway). ( Read more... )

I'm kind of frustrated right now. I feel as though I am very misunderstood. Sorry for the lame-ass title too... but that's how I feel anyway. Here's some of the ways that people misunderstand me ( Read more... )

My freewillhoroscope says ( Read more... )

No one's totally Zen all the time. Obviously. I know I talk a lot about being positive and Pronoia and passion, and I mean all those things, truly I do. I live by them. But since I'm emotional human being with TONS of feelings, I have to sometimes expell the negative out in a way that's not creating bad karma or bringing half the world (or just ( Read more... )

So the fateful and horrible happened to a much deserving me; Steve-o, my best friend and 6 year lover and I broke up. Well, let's say we're on a break. I know the break up was his decision and he said he needs to work on loving himself. Which he does. But it still hurts. I also know that I did deserve a break up from him. I took advantage of ( Read more... )