Yes I know it's not a word, but that's how I talk. Natashaism ( Read more... )

I'm trying to stay positive. That's all I have. Just smile and bare all. I don't like being told i've got a problem. Who does. I'd never hurt any one. Ask any one. I'm nice =D I just don't know, maybe if I put on an act infront of the doctor, then she'll leave me alone. I'm no different then most people. I love my daughter, and i'm the ( Read more... )

Had the doctors appointment today. Karlee did great with her 4 months shots. Then I had my appointment and felt like the doctor was attacking me, and saying that because i've got issues with anger, I might one day take it out on Karlee and need to be monitored for that, and she really would like for me to get counciling, but i'm not wanting it. ( Read more... )

It's a state of mind, yet some times your mind can becomes so messed up, that you just forget that your incontrol of it, not the other way around. I'm getting better. Maybe it's the pills, or maybe its the fact that i'm getting out there and meeting people, and reconnecting with old friends. Maybe it's the fact that I've finally not put so much ( Read more... )

Life is going alright. I mean, we're healthy, we've got food and a roof over our heads. Josh has a job and Karlee is a great baby. I just wish I could get my head out of this rut and be happy. I haven't been happy in a while. Like I mean, all the time freaking happy. I can only contribute it to one thing really. Friends. If I had some that ( Read more... )

So life in general isn't to great. I am very lonely, even though I have Karlee and Josh. I don't really have any friends here, and I feel sort of alone. Which really sucks and doesn't help with my ppd. It's sucky. I also am starting to get fed up of Josh's mom. Which I know isn't a good thing, because one day this woman will become my Mother ( Read more... )

Sadly Ghost had to be put down yesterday at 7:00pm due to the fact he couldn't breathe on his own any more. It wasn't something we saw coming, or expected. It has really hit me hard, and I know he's in a better place. I just wish he could have stayed with me for a longer period of time. My advice to people is to not buy cats/kittens/dogs, or ( Read more... )

So it's been really busy of late for me.
My days consist of sleep, eating, feeding, diaper changing, using the washrooms, showering/bathing, sleeping and some awake times.

So i'm sorry if i'm more MIA then normal. My priorities have changed slightly!

So December 31st I woke up at 4 am thinking why on earth was I wake. I didn't need to pee, I wasn't tired, yet there I was laying awake. So I got out of bed and though, hey i'll go sit on the toliet. Maybe I do have to go. So I sit there, and nothing goes on, so I wipe, and omg blood. What the fucks going on. So I wake Josh up, and he of ( Read more... )

So still no baby. Though can you really expect anything else as of now?
I thought I was going into labour last night, but nope, no such luck.
So, as of now, if baby doesn't want to come on it's own, i'm going in on the 2nd.
Shall be induced. Oh wells.