last night i dreamt of him again ( Read more... )

today, actually just now...and im so upset about it that i just needed to get it out here....i heard from my downstairs neighbor's apt the sounds of a girl in pain..sexually ( Read more... )

i havent written in so long...

i got a puppy in october and i havent cut since...but tonight is a struggle.

im out of love with him and i hate myself bc of how good he has been to me through all of my madness. i dont really know what to do... i just feel shitty. and i dont want to cut...

i am not ok today ( Read more... )

my mother tried to kill herself.

i cant shake the feeling that i have no chance-that despite all the blood i let out of myself-it will always be broken running through my veins.

i hate everyone. even my favourite doctor. everyone.

i think i might be losing him ( Read more... )

i cut ( Read more... )

i cried in class today ( Read more... )

i just went to my first hot yoga class.

hot.

let me tell you, fucking hot.

im mostly happy that i didnt throw up, but i actually got a lot of the positions too.

im feeling high right now-and ive been w/o drugs or alcohol for a month.
amazingggggg.

i saw my old therapist today.
she is the best thing for me.

ive started yoga.  its amazing.
there is no thinking.