I have been very busy of late trying to get a handle on my new situation.....I know how Meme feels, disconnected, homeless really, with the safe haven of home just out of reach. I am in the same leaky boat...Seems like I need to have a home, make a home, but I do not have a place to do this right now......I am trying to get there...so many issues ( Read more... )

Making progress by inches....finding the money, buying tools, making a plan....I am taking some DVD's to Colorado....now I have cable and a DVD player! hahaha such piteous luxury.....so tonight I am grilling steak! and cheesecake! wishe meme was here....

Heading back to Colorado this afternoon---one day sooner than I would like. Very short weekend, flying into Sacramento on Friday, it was horrifying to see the thick pall of smoke hovering over the Valley as far as one could see...then, one the ground, the wind! In Colorado I don't get California news, have to go online to local news websites, and ( Read more... )

I am sitting around feeling sorry for myself. Funny how that results in posting here. Colorado. California. Work. Family. Money. Poverty. This is the problem....what the hell am I supposed to do?

Well, events unfold, don't they? Seems we just roll along through life, encased in this bubble of sensation and emotion. It's like being the ball in a pinball machine, bouncing off the sides, off of random obstacles, setting off alarms and lights or just going down the wrong tube....There's that exciting moment when the lights go off and we get ( Read more... )

Well, it has been some time since I wrote here once again. Time back and forth to California and home, time watching my kids change and grow. Time...........

remember buddy holly ? he fell from the sky ( Read more... )

"The reason it's so painful when someone disappears is you have to face the fact that the person you loved had probably left you a long time before he grabbed his coat and scrammed. The hard part is realizing that he was lying to you, in some way, before the moment of vanishing. Don't ask yourself what you did wrong or how you could have done it ( Read more... )

Someone wise beyond her years said to me today, "You fool me and yourself into thinking it is all okay, and then it is just the same." She also said, "Insanity is repeating the same action and expecting a different result." Well, I guess that makes me both a fool and insane......It is amazing how much everything can change in a moment. It is as ( Read more... )

I guess there is no guaranteeing what will happen or not happen or how it will happen....our feeble attempts to control the events of our lives just don't work too well. So much is unforeseen...I have a decision to make in the moment, this or that or something else? I choose not knowing the result will be so drastically different than what I had ( Read more... )