I’ve come a long way. I can’t say I’m proud of myself, but I’m glad for making it through. There are times when I sit in class and my mind wanders off to past doings. You might catch me in class sighing deeply or zoned off to another place with a look of distress on my face. Whenever I think past to everything I’ve done in the past, I want to hit ( Read more... )

We need a little spark to keep it moving the right way. I've learned how to take a step back and go, "This is it. This is your life. Accept it." and with that newfound action I've been learning lessons everyday... taught by me. You can say I've grown a bit during this summer, maturity wise. I've learned that I'm not a little girl anymore, I'm ( Read more... )

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Recent Events as of Late:
6/11-6/13: Justine's birthday weekend. Stayed for 3 days, 2 nights. Watched movies, went on chatroulette/omegle and saw penis galore, played with purple rice krispies, went to cue with Ernest, bonded.
6/14-6/16: F.I.N.A.L.S. : Fuck I Never Actually Learned Shit
6/16: LAST DAY OF SCHOOOOOOOOOOOL! I was as excited as I was at ( Read more... )

2 years since my grandfather died and I'm still crying my eyes out as if it was only yesterday ( Read more... )

My priority list SHOULD be this:

1. AP World History textbook/review book
1. AP Biology textbook/review book
2. Justine's birthday present
3. Colorguard fees
4. Boku no Miteiru Fuukei ** NEW ARASHI ALBUM? FUCK YEAH!!!!!!

but it's more like this:

1. Boku no Miteiru Fuukei
2. Justine's birthday present
3. AP World History textbook/AP World History review book
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I MADE COLORGUARD. YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEES.

Nothing else happening in my life, and there's nothing wrong with that. I am completely, incandescently happy. There are things that bother and annoy me on the daily but that's normal, of course. Life is just so much easier when you stop caring about the insignificant people/things and just live your own life ( Read more... )

I've been intending to join colorguard since last year, but I never got around to it because I thought it was so difficult + the money problems.

But then again, it's still difficult and there are still money problems.

However, this time, I'm committed to colorguard. Last week I went to the last two workshops (they were held all week to teach ( Read more... )

The past days of 5/6-5/12 were horrible.

On the 6th I started getting really dizzy to the point of blacking out. Then the following days were all just going downhill for me. I felt nauseous, exhausted, and really just.. bleh during these days. I honestly didn't know what was going on with me until last Monday, so that meant a full schoolweek of ( Read more... )

those who actually care about being in my life would make an effort to do so. So all those inconsistencies in my life, that's all they are. Inconsistencies are just temporary people. I know some might say, that effort goes both ways and obviously lately, I haven't been doing my part. Why? Cause before I gave up, that's all I had been doing anyways ( Read more... )