Random and just plain weird!
I saw this in shemightberikki's journal. It made me think immediately of my good friends dreamsguy and papbear27. I'm not sure exactly what that says about any of them... but... Hey! It is what it is!
I am still sad.
I still have regrets.
I still can't stand to listen to myself think so I try to fill my brain with anything else.
My photography business is slowly picking up and my average customer spends about $500 with me. This is happiness and is a constant source of dismay for me as I still struggle with the fact that I am good enough at something to be moderately successful at it.
However... I suck ass at record keeping and my tax situation is enough to give me ulcers. I desperately need help and still don't make enough to pay someone to help me.
Also... the shitheel who was sharing my studio with me has not paid his half of the rent for 2 months now. This means that I will probably have to say goodbye to my studio if I don't figure outhow to make more money soon.
It doesn't help that I recently LOST $300 worth of memory cards and the stupid neck strap that I have had for 6 years! Plus my motherboard got fried in the last spate of storms... so I am out of a desktop computer. The worst part of losing my desktop computer is that I have to install my hard drives into my old crappy computer and reinstall Windows so that I can retrieve vitally important programs in order to install them onto my new laptop (purchased for me with a loan from my MIL).
So it's like... 2 steps forward... 1.5 steps back. Sad that I still don't have my shit together at 36.
And for anyone interested... check out my flickr account...
Click to viewI am still sad.
I still have regrets.
I still can't stand to listen to myself think so I try to fill my brain with anything else.
My photography business is slowly picking up and my average customer spends about $500 with me. This is happiness and is a constant source of dismay for me as I still struggle with the fact that I am good enough at something to be moderately successful at it.
However... I suck ass at record keeping and my tax situation is enough to give me ulcers. I desperately need help and still don't make enough to pay someone to help me.
Also... the shitheel who was sharing my studio with me has not paid his half of the rent for 2 months now. This means that I will probably have to say goodbye to my studio if I don't figure outhow to make more money soon.
It doesn't help that I recently LOST $300 worth of memory cards and the stupid neck strap that I have had for 6 years! Plus my motherboard got fried in the last spate of storms... so I am out of a desktop computer. The worst part of losing my desktop computer is that I have to install my hard drives into my old crappy computer and reinstall Windows so that I can retrieve vitally important programs in order to install them onto my new laptop (purchased for me with a loan from my MIL).
So it's like... 2 steps forward... 1.5 steps back. Sad that I still don't have my shit together at 36.
And for anyone interested... check out my flickr account...