Sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly. I eat whatever I want. I say goodbye. Not everybody likes this about me.

I've been vegan (with a couple of momentary lapses into cheese) since New Year's. I like it. I especially like eating giant piles of dark green leafy vegetables which is very healthy and delicious! So interesting what I've learned about what my body likes to eat. I just started talking to my friend Chris about health and fitness and eating stuff ( Read more... )

So much has happened since my fast. I've made some new friends. I've done my first one person show. I've learned how to be vegan and like it. I've written a lot. I've played Scrabble. I've been to therapy. Now I am resting and it feels so luxurious to lie in bed and write a silly livejournal post. Gabrielle died a year ago today. I was there. It ( Read more... )

I'm so hungry! Well to be perfectly honest at this moment I am only hungryish like I'm not having to rock myself (I'm not kidding about the rocking)to sleep because my stomach feels like it's burning, I'm more just hanging out with the dull throb, like I'm okay but if there was a cheeseburger in this room right now, the juice fast would be a memory ( Read more... )

Oh God! Today is day four of my juice fast. I stopped drinking coffee and eating food and I bought a juicer from walmart.com and Wow! I feel like shit! I decided to do this because I've been feeling so exhausted and sluggish and generally icky and tired and also because I need a break from everything. I told somebody recently that it's like I've ( Read more... )

One day soon I will feel normal. Maybe. Maybe a new normal. I've been reading all these blogs lately about people suffering so many things, being sad and broken, being sick, and I just have to throw my two cents in and say that I feel pretty fucken' weird, too. I think I have a lot to write, a whole new chunk of stuff, but it's not quite ready, the ( Read more... )

I wonder how many blog entries in all the blog entries across time and space have had the heading, "feeling weird". I really feel like part of a global tradition now, like I really am a blogger ( Read more... )

I'm here on the bed wanting something again. It's not cheese and crackers. I ate a huge bowl of queso and chips today and now I am sort of over cheese for a while. Now I am just here wanting. I'm not sure even if I want a thing. Lately I think the job of being me is not to try and get everything (or maybe even anything) I want but to make a ( Read more... )

I'm hungry. I just had some cheese and crackers and I'd like to have more. My problem? I don't want to get out of bed again.

Maybe I will have a band and a zine this year even though I vowed not to on the first. What else is a 41 year old childless professional monologist debtor to do with herself?