We kissed tonight... For a minute or two... I think she sees it as a mistake... It almost makes this worse... Even though I’m glad I got to feel her lips again... It sucks to know she didn’t mean to

I want to kiss her so badly... You know that spot when you’re pulling away from hugging someone and stop so you two are face to face... that happened like twice tonight and it took so much for me not to kiss her. I want to feel her lips again... I want to have that feeling when you kiss someone you love. I want to hold her in my arms. I want to be

God damn... how did i fuck this one up. As much as I know it wasn’t my fault I still want to blame myself so I could hate something. I really need to talk to Blake about all this. I need to get into the program. But I so don’t want to. As much as I hate being sick and miserable... I fucking love it. I wasn’t originally going to put this up but I ( Read more... )

This shit is driving me nuts. I wish she would just tell me how she feels... I think she likes her ex. Makes me sad...

So i just got home... got online... and Chelsea’s little bro IMed me saying she had two boys over and they were playing halo2. And I will tell you this... the worst feeling I have ever had completley overcomed my body... my mouth went numb... my whole body tensed up... and I started shaking. I have never felt this way about anyone. This fucking ( Read more... )

I love her still and don’t know what to do. I still think shes the most beautiful person ever... I still think shes the sweetest girl I’ll ever meet. I still want to cradle her in my arms and tell her I love her... I want to protect her from the evils of the world... I want to show her that not all things are evil... I want to be the last person ( Read more... )

She wrote in her xanga that you dont know what you had until its gone. Makes me really sad. I wish she were happy. That’s really all I want and for the first time I mean it.

So someone asked me today if I would ever get back with Chelsea and I said no... but I’m not sure. I really love that girl and miss her alot. But if we were to get back together things would have to change, you know? She told me she was ok and that it was a lonely day. I had somewhat of a lonely day as well. I hung out with this girl... she’s ( Read more... )

Holy shit... she’s coming home on Friday! I cannot wait to see her. I’m so excited. I’m going to spend so much time with her. Mmmmmmm... It’s going to be good times. Love

I try to go to sleep but can’t because I’m on the verge of tears. Tears of sorrow because I miss you so much. But also tears of joy because I’m so happy you’re mine.