I just stumbled across this blog again. And although there's not much on it, it took me back a few months ago. The last post I made was from June 15th. Over 6 months ago. And I can say a lot has changed since then, so I felt the need to put it all in perspective for myself. Compare the person who I was then, with the person I am today ( Read more... )

I must ask you to be patient,

there are cracks running through my bones,
and my throat often seizes up when I try to speak.

Sometimes I will be distant and avoid,
meeting your eye,
sometimes I disappear for days.

But if you wait long enough ( Read more... )

Can't you just ask me how I'm doing for once?

“I like drinking coffee alone and reading alone. I like riding the bus alone and walking home alone. It gives me time to think and set my mind free. I like eating alone and listening to music alone. But when I see a mother with her child, a girl with her lover, or a friend laughing with their best friend, I realize that even though I like being ( Read more... )

Sometimes it hits me like a ton of bricks how important the words your parents speak are. If they say they are proud of you, the world seems a bit lighter for a moment. An intense happy feeling spreading through your body. But at the same time, the moment you hear something bad, even if it's supposed to be a lighthearted joke, it can break you down ( Read more... )

"Be daring, be different, be impractical, be anything that will assert integrity of purpose and imaginative vision against the play-it safers, the creatures of the common place, the slaves or the ordinary" - Cecil Beato

Nothing really big changed over the last month or so. I'm still working the same job, thinking about what to with my student-life, and just trying to find my place in everything. But just little things have changed; my hair has been growing longer, my body is getting better because of the work I've been doing. And my mind is so much lighter. It ( Read more... )

I just got home from my brother's house, I spend the afternoon there after work. My brother is a designer as well, so he's a big help when it comes to me choosing an study in that specific field. He showed me a lot of things, and explained to me what he learned when he was in college, and why. He always showed me how to really practice my basic ( Read more... )

I burned my hand at work today. I was trying to get some stuff out of the oven and ended up burning my hand because I was trying to be quick. The customers saw it happen but kept going on how they were first in line, complaining as always haha. I cursed inside my head but kept going anyway. Later when it was less busy and the customers were all ( Read more... )

'I don't just want your heart. I want your flesh, your skin and blood and bones, your voice, your thoughts, your pulse and most of all your fingerprints, everywhere.' - Isobel Thrilling