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[mugrug]

Today in my Reading Sexuality lecture we watched a documentary on John Holmes. His rise into porn and his descent into drugs and crime. I sat there watching it, just thinking how much John Holmes reminded me of Damo. There was just something in his eyes, in the way he spoke in interviews. That same slightly awkward, yet completely confident, way of

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[_blubloo_]

oh honey *hugs*
that must of been hard.

the feeling always hits home-i get the same when i watch movies and docos on people on drugs-reminds me of the blackholes , the head fucks and the strange sexual postions i put myself in. it just puts me back into that weird mindspace.

it's tough :(

[mugrug]

Yeah... it's so strange how you can almost experience the sensations without the chemicals at times. Now to harness that power and save a lot of money!

[smof]

I can't believe I'd allowed myself to forget him and the whole situation. I just went on with life and pretended none of it happened. I guess there's times when you just can't pretend that life is good, that bad things don't happen.I know what you mean here. In the first month or two after Ju died I couldn't stop myself thinking of her every day. Now I can go a week or more without it ever occuring to me, but the weirdest things jolt the memory back. I find I can go ages feeling fine about it, thinking and talking about it like it's something that happened to someone else. And then one day it just does something different to me and the strangest thing makes me break down

[arradius]

It takes time, but eventually that does take the edge off the grief.
It's just the oddest things that bring them back into your mind.
I don't think it's forgetting as such, it's more just pushing to the side of your mind to when you can deal with thinking about them.

Sanitised elite. That's an excellent way of describing the Syd uni snobs :P

[the_mercy_seat]

Tommy,

What an incredible piece of writing. I found this insight very special.

Sometimes it's enough to know that you know.

Love,
Drue.

[mugrug]

*hugs*

Thankyou very much. It really means a lot to me coming from you.

We must go out and paint the town rainbow sometime soon.

Damo

[raspberry_boi]

You have a truely wonderful way of stringing a sentence together... but you know that already. I heard a rumour that Damo was sleeping with the manager or owner of arq or something and sleeping in a room upstairs in arq... but I don't know how relevant that rumour is.

Re: Damo

[mugrug]

Thanks.

There's always crazy rumours going around about arq. I may have to suss it out a bit.

How are you going? Haven't spoken to you in ages.