No one reads this anymore, which is probably why I'm posting. I'm such a bundle of mixed emotions and confusion right now. I want to talk to him about it but I'm scared and not just scared of what he'll say, but just saying the words scares me. I don't know what to do. I wish he would call. It's strange that he hasn't. I can think of a couple ( Read more... )

I came to a realization today.
The reason we're not friends anymore has nothing to do with my enumerated "faults."
It has all to do with this bizarre inferiority complex she has.
She thinks I'm better than her in certain ways, 'above' her maybe?
Whereas I don't think that.
But fuck it, we're not friends anymore so there's no reason for me to try to ( Read more... )

Oh man oh man oh man.
I have way too much shit to do.
My life is crazy right now.
I need to get it under control.
So effing busy.
Have to figure it out so I can add more to my plate.
It seems impossible.

I don't really believe in New Years Resolutions ( Read more... )

My life is falling to pieces ( Read more... )

Edit: I wasn't paranoid. Did lose two friends. No one reads this. Just thought I'd update it for myself.

Maybe I'm paranoid, but maybe I'm not.
I just may be losing all my friends.
I'm starting accutane soon.
I need to not be depressed b/c this can make me SUPER depressed.
I have to figure out my life before I start.
Fuck my goddamn life.
And fuck the ( Read more... )

My life is spiraling quickly out of control.

So I'm having issues ( Read more... )

I'm in this place of utter apathy ( Read more... )

Fuck.

It's the truth universally acknowledged that the moment one area of your life starts going okay, another part of it falls spectacularly to pieces. - Bridget Jones' Diary

...minus the one area of my life going okay part.