you know its weird to think that someone with such a big heart and someone who cared about life could be killed by his heart and have his life taken away from him. irony at its best. josh i hope you read this and know i love you. without a doubt in my life i hope all my friends realize how much i love them. they are the only thing that has kept me ( Read more... )

there is so much ive yet to accomplish in my life that im going to do. soon ill be moving away, away from every thin and everyone i know. im moving to hawaii. ill miss everyone and i hope to see you all before i go. im afraid though im afraid of starting over again and of all that i might loose. i have soo much here and i love soo much here that ( Read more... )

ive learned alot over my years and im proud to say that today i learned something new. well not really learned but realized what i lost. ive spent the last year and a half trying to realize why there was a sudden change in my life. i went from sweet lovable D to this arrogant asshole, but i think i know why. i lost love and the realization of love ( Read more... )

And the light fades out ( Read more... )

well the realization of death is a harsh one benny has been dead for more than a month but still i cant grasp five minutes without him. i dont know what to do or what to think. i feel as though ive gotten weaker and weaker since his death. im drained of life every day. closer and closer to the inevitable. but in the same since closer and closer to ( Read more... )

every day searching for the truths of my fabricated reality. i hope, i dream there for i am doomed. i create because i have been chosen to be the creator but i love because i am weak. falling in love is so easy but the reality of it is the complicated part. love and life are things that go hand and hand. but so do love and death. i am reborn after ( Read more... )

melodic overtures of every day life burning holes into the soul of society. simple creations of simple minds forcing an unknowing response biased on the falsified truths that we learn through our killing and destruction of our fabricated reality. thus we have claimed our views and the views of our peers to be what is righteous. but in reality we ( Read more... )

as an artist i am cursed to live with the beauty that i create and without the beauty that was created for me. why is that i bring soo much beauty to the world or at least try to and yet i have no beauty in my life. as the flowers that i make my life is cold hard but in the same way unique and glorious. but still in that fact not my best work by ( Read more... )

i dont know what im going to do i have to choose between lindsey or lisa. i mean i know i can date them both but i dont know what im going to do if one of relationships becomes serious. i mean i really really like lindsey but i feel the same way about lisa. but ill figure it out. right now i have mixed feelings about the whole situation im excited ( Read more... )

And the weirdness of it all we have the unigue and the regular, in the turns of this merry-go-round world that we live in, with the punks and the goths this world that really does accept the strange and unusual because society has relized its flaws and its hatred for what it doesnt understand ,and in that it has created this screen, a screen of ( Read more... )