still working on me. there's such a lot of work to do. =\ every time i think i've figured something out, there's something new to deal with. i wish i could be like some ppl who never feel stress or anxiety. i was starting to feel slightly okay when i remembered i needed to go to the commissary and i went into the usual panic attack. don't ( Read more... )

I don't believe ( Read more... )

so.... are you as disappointed as i am ( Read more... )

it's funny when you find yourself looking from the outside ( Read more... )

time to update to something a little more positive than that last entry when things were all just much too painful ( Read more... )

I lose my way ( Read more... )

it was c'mas eve when i wrote that last entry. that night i had this awful nightmare that we all woke up c'mas morning and we were about to open the gifts but a bunch of ppl came into our house. we decided to wait til they were gone before we opened the gifts. it looked like these ppl weren't gonna leave anytime soon so i went to take a quick ( Read more... )

my dad and my brother drove my mother away. they didn't need her. so she left. and they did just fine without her. she lived alone for the rest of her life, and still does. their lives went on. daddy remarried and lived happily ever after. eric grew up and married and had kids... happily ever after. my mom gave her life to raising the kids ( Read more... )

well well well... i just got through cleaning out the drain under the bathroom sink.... alllllll by myself! found what was clogging it... a plastic bubble blower thingy (thanks thomas...) and what looked like a dead banana (ummm, thomas???!!!). =P soooo, let me just say this about that: #1, i am very proud of myself for being so independent and ( Read more... )

As you walk away ( Read more... )