i don't know whats wrong with me these last year or so. My sleeping pattern has gotten even worse that it was before. I have never slept much anyways but ya know like 7 hours was good for me and i never looked tired. Now its gotten to the point of where i'm getting like 4 maybe 5 hours of sleep if i'm lucky. I have even stopped drinking & eating, ( Read more... )

O M F'ing gawd that just really hurt. I put my lip ring in for the first timein like 4 months or so and it REALLY hurt. Couldn't keep it in more than 5 min it was hurting so bad, dam..

Ok dam i got bored on my lunch and started looking through Ash's Yahoo pic's.. OMG i had such a flash back of the past from all the pics.. DAM i was skinny!! farknig SOB's

Ok everyone. Give me your Bday and i'm putting it on my calender to try to atleast remember to say happy BDAY!!

I'm sitting here in my room looking at the walls and realise i have never made this room feel like my space never put up anything onthe walls or anything. No posters or anything like that at all. I need to start expressing myself again instead of living in this white noise that surounds me all the time. I need to get a calender up so i can keep ( Read more... )

Today is just going to be one of those long days, I can just tell.. I know one thing. Getting stuff off my chest with people from my past is really great. It feels like a weight is off my shoulders thats been on them for what feels like years. Now only if i can get this other stress off my shoulders it will be even better.

Yes i'm 'in love with this winamp channel... They are playing a sick mix of "out of time" OMG.. :strikes a pose:

I talked last night with becca (roomie) about everything that's been going on with ALL the shit the last few months. She just said "WOW". I really care for heather alot, and have missed her so much over the last 8 months. She said she didn't want to loose contact with me and tried to give me her Email addy and such, but I told her "NO". It just ( Read more... )

I'm in just such a good mood right now for some odd reason. Just got done talking to ash on AIM for a bit and shes talked me into signing up for OA and seeing what its all about. She seems to think it will be a place i might fit in or something. Who knows. I spend the last hour on OA's webby just looking through some info and such. looks pretty ( Read more... )

I started listening to streaming Dj's on winamp again last night, and i heard this YUMMY mix of Suicide (decoder & substance mix)::swoon:: Its funny how just listening to new music and such on the streaming has helped my mood cause i have become bored with all the stuff i have right now. I was gaming all day yesterday and just bouncing in my chair ( Read more... )