I really hate how the last words of someone, always seem to stick in your mind on repeat. "hes a really nice guy" keeps playing over and over in my head. Then for some reason I named my main toon in WoW after her Daughter. I don't know why i did that but now its really starting to bite me in the ass. I need to take a trip i think to some please out ( Read more... )

I have made my mind up that with all the stuff thats been going on in my life the last few months and such. I just need to let it all go, and move forward. I love heather, but nothing i can do will change the way things are. I am here and if things change for her then she knows where to contact me. I just hope she understands why i have to be no ( Read more... )

Is it bad to push someone away that you love and want to have more than friendship with, that you were once more but they are taken? I just called heather in the UK and talked to her and said I made a mistake by contacting her. I shouldn't have never of sent the card to her. She asked why i can't be friends. I told her because i wanted more than ( Read more... )

Any sugestions on what i should do tonight? A: get piss fucking drunk and pass out at home. B: go to knock knocks and get piss fucking drunk and drive home and pass out/ or in the car. C: get online and play WoW all night long and hide in my roome away from everything. D: take lots of sleeping pills and just sleep the whole weekend away.

I'm sitting here in training and the girl next to me ask's " are you ok" . I looked at her odd and say why. "because your crying" She says to me. WTF... Tears were running down my cheek, and i hadn't even realized i was crying. No sound or anything. Just the tears burning down my face.. What is wrong with me. I never show this much emotion around ( Read more... )

I talked to Heather today. She got my card in the mail today. We played phone tag for a few min, cause she called me at 6:30 am. I talked with her for the length of the drive. I asked her if we could keep in touch. In my mind i was thinking that she just wanted to very slow with me. It struck me as just very odd. She got very quiet for a moment, ( Read more... )

Well I hope the card I sent heather makes it to her in the wales. ::crosses fingers:: Yet again, I'm so very tired today. I keep not being able to get to bed until 1-2am every night, and getting up at 7am. Its starting to get me really tired during the day. I keep pushing myself to workout with eather running, skating, or weights everyday to also ( Read more... )

Dam all the talk about hair color and cuts have me thinking what i need to do with mine.. LOL. I havn't cut my hair in 6 months now and its getting long to that point thats its getting in my eyes. I almost just went and got it all cut off yesterday instead of skating, but i said i wasn't going to get it cut. I think i'm just going to let it grow ( Read more... )

I'm so tired today for some reason. I'm not really sure why at this point. Only getting about 6 hours of sleep a night is part of the reason i have been so tired i think. I went skating again yesterday and i did about 4 miles this time. Today will be my off day i think, and i'll just go home and chill for now, who knows. Ran into the girl that ( Read more... )

All I want to do right now is just find some old rope swing on a river and just swing right out into the water and float around for hours and just have fun and chill. Then after chill out next to a camp fire that night and relax out on the river. Dam that sounds like stuff i did when i was still growing up with my friends ( Read more... )