I havent updated my livejournal in so fuckin long.. i dont even know where to start. SO my depression is getting better.. i guess the big deal right now is feeling lonely.. i want someone to be there for me all the time.. and i want to be there for them.. i know i have friends but its not the same when you have a girlfriend or a boyfriend. I want a ( Read more... )

All i have to say is that life sucks.. im depressed.. people broke in to my car...stole a bunch of stuff... and i am just depressed in general. now im seeing alan 2 times a week.. i will talk more later .. peace

i dont even know where to begin. Im at jamie mommy's house i just got back from a long drive from LA it was fun though..sept my butty hurts from all that sitting so anyways i went to the mountains on christmas...all i did was sleep... sooo boring i might add we got there i slept we went on a walk i smoked some cigs and the next afternoon we left.. ( Read more... )

sooo right now its 6:40 in the am and i havent slept since 12:30 yesturday.. meh whatever i cant really say much more about that... anyways.. i have so much xmass shopping to do yet i have no fuckin MONEYahhhh what shall i do??!!? maybe i should paint for people!? yea.. thats a good idea.. woo hooo i better start gettin painting! ahh i have to do ( Read more... )

blah blah blah blah blah .. WINTER BREAK!!! fuck yes.. im so happy tonight im gunna get so fucked up im not gunna even know where i am.. YYYYYYYYEESSS ajskfldjklfasfs lalal i hate school so fuckin much i want it to die.. thats all i have to say im so bored.. i have 24 more minutes left! ahhhhh woo hooo bye bye

soo yesturday... i hung out with my sis for a while then i went to see julia and then i went to go see casey.. today im going to berkeley with michelle, daniel and gust.. and we are gunna sell my clothes and just hang.. i feel sorta bad cuz i said i would give michelle some cigs and she is only 14 i think well she is a freshman.. today i feel very ( Read more... )

helloo out there. MMMM im in art class and we are at the computer lab and im bored. so anyways i want to tell you about my weekend.. and today.. so friday i went to GLSEN then went to berkeley with alex and julia it twas fun i got so fuckin high..then on saturday i cleaned my room then(didnt finish thought.. im doing that today) anyways then i went ( Read more... )

Sooo i havent writen in a while i guess i am doing good.. i think im gunna quit smoking the dub after this sack is through.. I think it is a high possibility that it will get out of hand.. i dont know though.. casey started dealing... so i guess that is even an easier way to get it and i look at that as more of a bad thing than a good thing. I have ( Read more... )

Last night i went to GLSEN and then went home and then i went to barnes and noble to meet julia and gust and we just sat there talking for awhile and then i went home with gust and we sat and talked to my mom for awhile. Then i sat and talk to my mom till she fell asleep and didnt make sense.. I told her my view on my marijuana use and i told her i ( Read more... )

I have changed. Here is what i use to do/be ( Read more... )