smoking kills ya right ....... ok so i stoped smoking, cant stop shaking its been to days now and FUCK IT SUCKS..........o will ill be ok ..not.. will i want to die i want to smoke so bad its so fucking hard no one nows i wish so bad i had my B MAN HERE WITH ME RIGHT NOW... i hope everyone will be happy for me couse i want to quit not just for me ( Read more... )

so its been a long time and yes there is shi going on right now a lot of shit but i just want to say something since where in my jurnal right now and i can say what ever i want i will just show u a little sumthing someone else wrote but that wrote the wrong shit this time here it is ( Read more... )

i no every one nows now so i dont care what u guys think of me hat me kill medo what ever u wish i dont care this is for he best ino every one is going to be pissed but u guys hvae never been trough this before i have so i no howshit will be just leave me alone about my choice it fucking sucks i wish i could die fro doing this but then i dont couse ( Read more... )

ok so what ever i say in here stayes in her ashley already nows whats going on but i fiugre ill be the one telling every one before it gets hot i just got a fucking call from joyce todayand she told me that she was fucking 5 monthes preg now im thinking to my self ok 5 mon is a fucking long time the 10 of this month will be 3 monthes for me and ( Read more... )

so now i have to say i have had a real chrismas i went to c ashley and just watching her open her present and look trough it the look she had on her face god i wanted to cry it was like an angel looking down from heven just watching the kids play in the park i could not have been more happer she has no clue how happy she has made me when she opend ( Read more... )

so today is xmas yayaya so fucking what i no out there there r a lot of people having a good day today but tere is always one person a year that doesent and it always sems to be me i am sitting in my house alone with no one here i called marshell she was out to here grannpas but she had a goodday i called ash she never picked up so i got online she ( Read more... )

so i fucking hate xmas with a pasion i never get to have it wiht family i never get to be with the one i love i have no fucking clue why i even care so much about this stuped fucking thing i want to spend time with ash but she has to be home at 7 couse she has to do shit with her family to and theres no telling what time i will c her tomarrow i ( Read more... )

so im so tyerd of girls thinking my girl is hot i fucking scarews me so bad couse ash was bi and im not sure if she still is but its nothing bad i guess but now but i have not only worrie about guys but girls to i have no clue what o do its fucking driving me crazy it fucking pisses me of so bad i want to fucking just run right of a cliff and ( Read more... )

This is a picture that I, Ashley, made for my baby. I am doing this entry for murderbotch


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so im all fucked up righ now and everything is hitting me at once and it fucking hurts so bad i dont no what to do god i want to fucking kill my self right now and just say the fuck it i had my nife out a little whill ago and i was holding it on my rist and i wanted to cut it so bad i wanted to watch my self die right thene and there but i just ( Read more... )