Wow. Can’t believe this old thing is still here. I’ve logged in for miscellaneous reasons over the past few years, but for the most part, this journal hasn’t been touched in nine years ( Read more... )

Well, I was bored so I decided to joke around a little on my ex's formspring. Just leaving her random stuff and shit. I didn't say anything threatening at all, the worst thing I said to her was that I'm better than her, and she, jumping to conclusions, starts to talk shit about my family, as if she knows 100 percent that it was me. The fact that ( Read more... )

Well, yesterday my girlfriend brought up the idea of taking a break. Not on our relationship, but on the sex. We're not going to have sex for an entire month.

As much as I love our sex, I think she's right. Every time she comes over, which is every couple of days, say one or two days, and I mean every time, we have sex. Neither one of us want our ( Read more... )

Have you ever felt as if you were just fucking worthless? Have you ever felt as if you wished for nothing more than to be wiped off the face of the universe forever, without a trace, just so you don't have to bring misfortunes into anybody else's life? Right now, I can honestly say I wish I was dead ( Read more... )

I love my girlfriend more than anything in the world. She's by far the most amazing girlfriend I've ever had ( Read more... )

Why do I expect so much?

I wish I didn't have to get sad over the smallest fucking thing. Yet, no matter how much I wish I didn't, I still do.

Sometimes, I wish I wasn't so sensitive.

I wish I wasn't so pessimistic.

I wish I didn't stress over the smallest thing.

It's been the longest time since I last said the words, "I love my life" and actually mean it ( Read more... )

Maybe Valentine's Day won't bas as bad as I first presumed ( Read more... )

I'm deciding to give up on her. If she doesn't want me, it's her loss. I'm not going to keep torturing myself like this anymore. This isn't going to be another Stephanie, where I spend all my time on one person, fucking killing myself more and more every day, when I could be finding others. I realy did love her, and that was my mistake. I shouldn't ( Read more... )

Well, it's official.

I can't fall in love.

All it will do is fuck me up in ways unimaginable.