Wow. I fucked up big time this year. It totally sucked when it was supposed to totally rock. And this may sound selfish, but i feel like i'm the only one who's paying for both of our mistakes. Even though it was his too. And she's paying for it and so am i but he's not. Although i could indeed be wrong about that. I'm wrong about a lot of ( Read more... )

Back to that familiar question of what i want again. Apparantly i dont even know, so i guess i can't blame him for not knowing how he feels either. But i'm going to try to forget that for now. Only....6 days left of my junior year, and i'm pissed cuz it sucked. As did every other year of high school...so i've come to the conclusion that high ( Read more... )

Another one of those days. I wish i could just.....give up. Just like that. But i cant.....and i fucking hate every bastard that ever makes me fucking care. I hate all of you. And one of these days it'll come back around. One of these days ( Read more... )

Ah. So many concerts i wanna fucking see....and no money. Well....close to none. Ozzfest is definitely out of reach despite the money aspect because my sister is visiting those days. Damn....people have bad timing. Including myself.....but thats a whole different subject that nobody cares to hear anyways. But i'm scared. I have no idea why ( Read more... )

Oh no. This........is not good. WHY CANT I MAKE UP MY MIND!!! I hate indecisive people, yet it seems i've turned into one of them. Ahh. This always happens to me. I just need to....pick one boy and one only!!!! WHY CANT I DO THAT!!!! When i have something, it gets on my nerves and then i dont want it anymore so i get rid of it. But then i ( Read more... )

Oh no. This........is not good. WHY CANT I MAKE UP MY MIND!!! I hate indecisive people, yet it seems i've turned into one of them. Ahh. This always happens to me. I just need to....pick one boy and one only!!!! WHY CANT I DO THAT!!!! When i have something, it gets on my nerves and then i dont want it anymore so i get rid of it. But then i ( Read more... )

If i had a gun right now.....damn......not the best way to start this. Lets just say.....i'm depressed. But what else is new? Oh well.....just gotta ride it out. Well....this entry was pointless. Later.

So.....all is well that ends well. A part of me is sad and a part of me is relieved. But all is said and done and thats what matters i guess. On to other subjects.....school FUCKING SUCKs. I'm over my head in late and to do homework, and i cant do it because i'm so fucking depressed!!!!! So basically i've decided to just...do my best(which is ( Read more... )

Eh. I'm fucking sick. Still. I love my little mood icon thing for sick...vomit always adds to any effect. I CANT BREATHE!!!!!!=(*tear tear* Could possibly be karma. Being sick gives me nightmares. I have no idea why.....but it does. RAWRRR!!!!! I give up. Cold medicine here i come. I just need sleep. Laterz.

<3 meeeeeeee

Fuck. That's all i have to say. Fuck. Fuck today. Fuck tomorrow. Fuck yesterday. Just........fuck.