maybe my focus is set too far. it seems like i try to look into things. look past the outer shells, but who says that's possible? maybe to get a better idea of something, you just look at it's surface, with absorbing eyes. see the small details and jigsawed facets. this connects this, and these stem from this, and so forth. life might seem ( Read more... )

everyone i get really close to is sad or gets that way with time.
do i subconsciously choose sad people to get close to?
or is it me?

fifteen minutes before i have to walk out this door
fifteen more minutes left to sit here on the floor
10 shifts a week and still i feel weak
ikea fitted apartment with plastic and teak
smoking half tubes one after the other
here's the cheese line, i really love her
but tonight these tables wont get me down
tonight it's service with a frown

why, does fear stop truth?

where's my backbone?

my head would collapse if i stood on it.

what happens when someone tries to change?

where is it?

im intoxicated, icant help but feel less important htatn you two. khjersten, the multitude atwhich you perceive is astonishing to me, and itwake s ne from a slumber. jeph the ability of desiphering and utilizin tour persceptions breeds envy inside of me.

it seems there's no room for the slow and uninterested. i see them moving along the sides of roads on cool humid mornings, perhaps at peace for those few hours, perhaps forgotten to peace. i can see me walking their path. on a constant search for immediately soothing shallow comforts before death plucks my weak limbs from the giant social tree. i ( Read more... )