You know there are those moments in your life where things are so clearly defined where you really screwed up, but whats done is done now. I am excited to start over, but a little scared too. It has been a very long time since I have felt like I was completely free. I was served today. I was really scared to get the visit, but the guy was really ( Read more... )

Wow,

It has really been a long time. I am sorry for that. I have been giving all that I have to a person that really doesn't and didn't deserve it. But that is over now for good. It will be final soon. My word, I didn't even know that I could hurt this badly.

But in many ways, I am just relieved.

Someday soon....

Wow, Talk about writers block. Starting over isn't exactly the right source of action. I just have to get back on track again. I would have been, (could of been), should have been. But I am where I am, and that is just reality. It will not stop me though from moving forward. I am doing exactly what I need to be doing. (except for the Billy Gilman ( Read more... )

Yes, I am alive and well. Busy, but well.

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I can't find enough hours in the day to get everything done that I absolutely have to do, much less something that I would like to do. (Like sleep) 4 hours per night; tops. I took a position with a company contracted with General Motors. Its a good job for me. Better than the ushering positions for the UT football games and such. I have to have ( Read more... )

I seem to be Violet with a red overtone. I think the overtone is a bad thing. I should work on ditching it. I need a chakra balance, badly ( Read more... )

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I would rather never 'feel' again than to feel what I feel right now. How many more hills are on this roller coaster?

That's what you get when you get a free day, I suppose. I raced to class this morning showing up with 5 minutes to spare. I double checked the class number and my schedule to make sure I was in the right place because something just felt wrong. I reassured myself that everything was in check and opened the door to an empty classroom. It was ( Read more... )