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So goddamn. That's all I can think of. So goddamn. What does that mean? I don't know. I guess it's weird. But what do you expect? Immense excitement? Happy fun times? Yes maybe. But after being released it has become incredibly apparent that my old ways are no longer acceptable. It's so hard though. Why so much pain? I have so much to look forward ( Read more... )

I have never felt so numb in my entire life as I do right now. I don't think any one of my friends wants me around. I don't even know how to explain it because my mind has.. just stopped I guess. I've tried everything I can think of but I'm just not welcomed. I guess people think I'm some carpet that they can walk all over and I'm just supposed to ( Read more... )

Crazy shit happened yesterday. First I woke up to Shannon calling me. I haven't talked to her in like 5 or 6 months. She's getting sick of her boyfriend. That's cool. Let's hope everything works out this time. I heard some Slayer today and it was awesome. I never really listened to it before. Samurai Legend Musashi comes out tuesday. I'm pretty ( Read more... )

Everybody is against me again like usual, so I'm done. Done bitching, done complaining and if I start to bitch someone remind me of what I wrote because at the end of the day all I want is for everyone to enjoy my company and to enjoy everybody elses company. To explain my bitching for the last, uh, forever, it was all just because I've seen so ( Read more... )

So I read Benner's journal yesterday and man, I felt so bad for being a dick. Well, you know, kind of bad. Bad enough that I regret it but not like it really matters in the long run. Anyway, it was shocking to read thoughts from someone who, as he mentions himself, is looked at as just being "Big Tough Benner." Not that I didn't think he thought ( Read more... )

It's been a long time since I updated because I have incredibly limited access to any type of internet enabled device. So life's been grand. Or at least it seems so. My only ache is my heart. The current lack of affection is making me insane. It's not so bad, I can use my good friends Mary Jane and Lorry Tab to cover up the slight pain that ( Read more... )

So rumor has it that a few stupid assholes were scheming to fuck around with my Livejournal account. The funny thing is, they thought they knew my password, but it turns out they didn't know it at all because they're stupid fuckers. So just to be sure I changed my password anyway. Ha Ha, bitches.

So it seems that no matter what I say to people, they simply just don't get it. Jimmy, I read your post about how much of a perfect night you had with Amber. Perfect, considering she's only raising your hopes so she can smash them into oblivion at a later date, that is. Either way it's not my decision to make but, what the fuck, how long until ( Read more... )

So I haven't updated in a while but that's only because I've been really busy. When I say busy though, I of course mean that I've had nothing to do at all. I got a new job at Bianca's, a pizza place, before I got fired from Danny's for taking a day off. I took my last check from Danny's but I have made no effort to re-establish myself as a ( Read more... )