I just got another job. Crazy right ( Read more... )

So Mike's plane comes in today. It was originally supposed to come in around 7:45pm...but that didn't work out because Texas sucks and has crappy weather ( Read more... )

So Mike informed me last night that he might not be able to go off base (or far off base-definitely not out of state) the first weekend that he comes home. I was soooo excited about it and now, he might not even be able to come. I can still go down there and spend the day with him. But I was looking forward to a whole weekend of just the two of us ( Read more... )

Yes I'm counting down. I can't wait to see my airman. He's kind of my world right now ( Read more... )

I love him. Seriously ( Read more... )

Its still all I think about.

I also think I'm fighting for it without being in it. Weird.

I finally got a good nights sleep.

But I still don't feel right. The best way to explain it is that I don't feel like I'm living my life, more like I'm just watching it. I know it doesn't make any sense, but I can't explain it any other way.

I'm going to wait. I know I need to wait.

It just doesn't feel right. I may have made the biggest mistake of my life ( Read more... )

He finally got to call me. It was only for a few moments but it was nice to hear his voice. He sounded exhausted and he asked me to stop putting "SWAK" on the backs of my letters ( sealed with a kiss). Apparently his TI is making him do push ups and he doesn't get my letters for an extra day because of it. I was considering being evil and doing it ( Read more... )

But I'm a great big mess. IF I ever get to talk to him, I am going to try to have to be ok, and not break down. Particularly because the first time that I might be able to talk to him is going to be at Thanksgiving at his parents. I really do feel like I'm just going to fall apart without him. And I'm going a little crazy. I'm feeling off without ( Read more... )