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Some side notes to the last post
Well, my secrets are practically out of the bag. But it is not unintentional. But I understand that some people may be angered at my post without knowing the loose ends ( Read more... ) -
Sexual abuse and incest
First of all, I am going to admit something that has caused me shame for many years. It causation and the motor behind some actions I am not proud of. At the age of 11, my cousin forced me to pleasure him sexually and therefore I am a survivor of incest. This event confused me a lot, it caused me to question many things as well as clarifying a lot ( Read more... ) -
Reflections and being more transparent
In reflecting on my life over since I arrived at Long Island University, and since I left to start a new life in California there have been many things that I want to be more transparent about. Granted, I may not want to put the news out there everywhere, but I am willing to admit it all. So, from now, I will be focusing on some posts that I want ( Read more... ) -
Birthday message
Happy birthday, CelticMoni! -
The past three nights
I have been anticipating the arrival of the anniversary of three years. Two anniversaries happen in the month of May, but this one is the bigger of the two. I am so happy it is finally here. It is going to be a great new year ( Read more... ) -
Miracles do occur
Today, was really unexpected. I have been struggling with body issues, namely two of my body flaws being that I am overweight and that my breasts are not big enough. That cascaded into my thinking I am not attractive and nobody would want me or find me attractive. And even if they did, I would think they would need some heavy therapist and some ( Read more... ) -
Feelings, nothing more than feelings
The semester is coming to an end. Spring is here, the weather is getting warmer in New York. I see more skin and for a lesbian that has not been touched for a long time, I am frustrated to keep it light. Ok, I desire companionship. A little play...you know the deal. A girl's got needs! So, I am looking at the prospect of being very isolated this ( Read more... ) -
My greatest struggle
For most of my life, my greatest struggle has been loneliness. There have been occasional friends who hang out with me and make the loneliness go away, but for when that is not happening, I have the crushing burden of this struggle. Now, for many years, my family has become more estranged from me, the university I attend has another set of issues. ( Read more... ) -
Life continues its upward swing
So, last Wednesday I went to hand a piano score to my composition professor for him to look at. I also had a piano lesson shortly after. I saw my composition professor Dr. Strommen and he told me to wait outside of an office he disappeared into. He disappeared into the Dr. Hynes office. So, they were in there for a few minutes and I was invited in ( Read more... )
