tonight i learned another thing about myself that I've secretly known for awhile...music is my passion, i cant sing but i know i need to do something in it, priduce it, guitar, drums..anything...its the one thing that keeps me sane and on track during such hard times, the one band that does is Pearl Jam...i bought their new cd tonight of 'lost dogs ( Read more... )

Today was a really was the day I told shay what i felt, i'm not good with words or my thoughts neccesarily ..but i tried. Shay is coming out here or we are going there soon...less than 8 weeks...scary thought, will the girl be mutual then? its easy now, right? I hope not..i hope the easiest part is meeting..putting the face and body to the name or ( Read more... )

its been a weird vacation...i have not really much much at all to even call it a vacation, i've sat at home, played video games, got drunk once (new years eve), and then..well nothing...i've even kind of gotten bored with working out...i've lost 40 lbs and now it seems im starting to go back to my old ways of eatting late at night, sleeping all day ( Read more... )

so tomorrow night i leave for indianapolis once again for christmas break...i live in a shithole town with a college that people hate, but for the first time ever - i feel the need to stay here...maybe its because kenzie is moving out and i really like the guy - he is a cool roomate...or maybe it's because i kinda succeeded for once this semester ( Read more... )

my first journal. how cute.

so just to make a first entry.... hi!