Do you ever feel like you have absolutely no place to go and that everything closes in around you and that you're never gonna deserve anyting better than the life you've chosen for yourself? And that you can't ever do anything right?

Yeah...me neither...

I'm not in school.
and everyone else is.
and all I do now is work, and plan my wedding.
I all of a sudden, coming back from my trip to visit Kenny and reading everyones back to school journal entries, am feeling very fucking old.

my update
I'm in love
and getting married.
maybe.
lmao
don't you wish you were me?

don't listen to me anymore when I try to update my lovelife on this stupid thing lmao. I can't write that often. My love life is too...crazy for me to even fathom or begin to attempt to put into words in here lol. I'm single. there, update done. I don't think I even updated to say I dated Brent for a week...yah long stories. I don't hate Andy ( Read more... )

I feel like I'm losing everything.
My happiness is always momentary.
I feel like my best friends are being whisked away, because I'm stupid and decided to chase after a boy who probably isn't even worth my time.
I just feel like everythings falling apart around me and I don't know who to go to anymore.

i'm fucking drunk right now but fuck andy...ASSHOLE

Ok..so I called Andy when I got off work, and everything, and he said the party would be within a half hour to an hour and he would call me and give me directions to said party....945ish came around and there was no call so I was like f this, its been 2 hours. So I called him and some girl answered, it was one of his friends that I've met before. ( Read more... )

Why can't I ever be the girl a guy is absolutely crazy about? Why do I always seem to momentarilly attract those guys who are insane over an ex of theirs? Do they just flock to me then realize I couldn't ever be someone they cared for? I for once want a guy who isn't tainted. I've dealt with shit from guys too, do you see me obsessing over them??? ( Read more... )

Why..do I end up truly liking a guy who doesn't know what he wants? And why am I such a great person? Andy called me tonight when I was leaving Tara's with Michael, and we talked for a little bit, but it was hard to talk on the phone cause Michael kept talking so Andy just hung up cause he couldn't get a word in, so I called him back and he said he ( Read more... )

As always I put myself in the situation of wanting to be with a guy who's interested in me, but more interested in his ex. Andy. yes. Man, I knew from the beginning that he was still very into his ex but he's trying to get over her and everything, and apparently I'm who's supposed to help him get over her lol. So. yay. But, Tuesday night I went to ( Read more... )